IN TOO DEEP│minizerk

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"Thanks," I muttered as I stepped out of his car. He winked before speeding off. I felt a shiver tingle my spine as the wind picked up. I ran into my home, smiling as the warmth engulfed my freezing flesh that was dotted with goosebumps.

As I pulled out my phone, I debated on whether to turn it back on or to leave it. I ended up powering it back up again after a while of having it off, typing in my password. I had multiple messages, but they were all from the same person, and they all were basically the same thing. Except one message in particular.

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i know you wanted me to leave you alone, but i just can't, josh, as you can probably tell from the spam. you've been on my mind since my date. i don't know what's up with you but i really am here to listen. you've listened to all the bullshit i've had to rant about, and i wanna repay you somehow. nobody has listened me to me like you have. please, josh, if i did something, i'm so very sorry.

My thumbs fumbled over a few keys as I typed a response with tears floating in my eyes. A couple fell on the screen, my heart empty and small as I hit send.

i think it's best for us to not be friends, simon. i loved how close we were and all that, but i just really can't deal with you dating someone that isn't me. if it wasn't obvious, i like you. i still do. i can't help it. but knowing you like someone else hurts me far too deeply and i wouldn't be able to look at you the same. please do forget about me, delete our conversation even. you can block me if you want. but if you're ever upset and need someone to listen, i'm always here. we just can't be the friends we were before. i'm sorry.

Almost immediately, I got a response.

no, please, joshua. don't leave me. you're the best friend i've ever had.

if you leave me, i lose a huge part of myself.

you made me so confident in who i am, and you were teaching me how to love myself.

please, you can't leave me.

it's just for the best, simon

no, it's fucking not! it'd be for the worst!!!

sometimes life's tough. it doesn't go how you wanted it to. but i don't want our friendship to continue if it means i have to suffer while watching you dance with someone else, hold their hand, kiss their cheek, cuddle their body. it just isn't right, si

josh, i'm sorry. okay? i like you too. but i like this guy as well. please, josh. don't leave me.

i'm not here to be a second option, simon. goodbye.

no josh!!

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