IN TOO DEEP│minizerk

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Conversation With — Miniminter

simon, please talk to me

josh, what can i do for you to leave me
the fuck alone?

nothing. i want to talk to you.

will talking to you make you leave?

no. i will be here forever.

oh, fucking give up already

no

why not?

because i actually love you, simon.

no you don't

yes the fuck i do

then why'd you leave me for three weeks?

i didn't mean to, si. i wasn't thinking straight.

you're so fucking stupid, josh.

you're the reason i've wanted to end my life.

you're the reason my boyfriend broke up with me.

wanna know why?

wait what!?

because i fucking love you too. i've loved you since you walked into jj's. you made my heart pound against my chest. you made me feel alive again.

and then you ripped yourself away from me.

my warmth and light in this dark and cold world disappeared from my sight. without a proper fucking goodbye.

and then you come back and think everything will fucking magically melt back to how it used to be? you're fucked!

simon, i didn't know you felt that way about
me.

well, now you do. congrats. must feel
fucking nice.

it does, but it doesn't. i'm so very fucking
sorry i hurt you. i didn't think i was.

but you hurt me too, si. i felt the same way when you mentioned your hot new date. so quit acting like you're the only victim because you aren't. i suffered as much as you, if not, more.

i want you to leave. me. the fuck. alone.

something doesn't add up, minter.

you're depressed when i don't talk to you.

but then you push me away when
i finally do?

because i'm not letting you hurt me
anymore! it's called self respect.

oh piss off. you're only doing it so i can continue to look like the bad man here.

i wish i was dead. you don't deserve someone like me. i'm broken. i'm messed up.

you fucking deserve better.

that's why i'm pushing you away

and i read somewhere that the only way of pushing away people is by being a prick to them.

well, your source was horribly wrong. i've
read that too. it doesn't work with true
friends.

if i let you back in my life, you better promise not to fucking hurt me again.

i promise, simon minter, to never hurt you EVER again.

i love you, joshua

i love you more x