Never Going To Be Right {taekook/vkook au}

Chapter 18

Jungkook's pov
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All I felt was warmth around me. I felt so warm and comfortable that I didn't want to move from this place for forever. I snuggled into the warmth even further wanting to be completely encompassed in it while bringing my arms around myself. I stayed there in happiness until I felt the warmth move under me, which even in my sleep induced state of mind I knew wasn't supposed to happen.

I attempted to lift my head up to see what exactly was happening and why I was so comfortably warm in my current place. As I slowly lifted my head I felt the thing or I guess I should say person now, tense up when I moved. I tensed too, the thoughts of what happened earlier and what had gotten me in this position, finally coming back to me.

I don’t really know what went through my head next but all I know is I was pushing away from the person and to what I thought would be the other side of the bed but ended up being the ground. I winced and blinked rapidly as I tried to get my brain to completely catch up with what was going on and not really caring that I just fell none to gracefully onto the ground.

As I tried to catch my mind up, I saw a head peek over the side of the bed looking at me with a curious and concerned expression on their face.  

“Um why did you suddenly decide to move to the ground..?”, Taehyung said, looking at every part of me, probably looking to see if I was hurt in any way besides the obvious. I looked down trying to come up with a response to that. I mean I was really comfortable where I was but since when did me and taehyung, who I may or may not have a slight crush on, sit on a bed with each others head in the others lap?

I was trying to think of the rational reasons why this was happening. It had to just be because he was trying to comfort me after what just happened right? Best friends do that, don’t they? I was just overthinking this to much, of course it was just because he was trying to comfort me after all that’s happened today and no other reason. It’s not like he felt anything besides friendship toward me anywa-

“Earth to Jungkook. Are you okay? You just took a pretty hard fall there.”, I heard taehyung’s concerned voice break through my thoughts. I looked up to him to see his eyebrows scrunched in concern and his hair flopped down into his face, covering one of his eyes, which may have looked slightly adorab- okay maybe i did have a crush on him after all…  

“Y-Yea I’m perfectly fine..”, I said looking away from him, already feeling my face start to heat up from the little eye contact we had and the recurring thought of what was just happening a couple of minutes go. The bigger thought of why we were in this situation playing over in my head as well, the fact that he knew no and wasn’t treating me like a freak yet was something I couldn’t have imagined.

I heard shuffling come the bed, breaking my train of thought and assumed that it was from the movement of taehyung getting up to leave the room now that I was obviously fine. What I didn’t expect was to have him sit down next to me which practically had me jumping away again in surprise. I refused to look up and meet his eye contact because I already knew how red my face was and the touch of his leg and shoulder against my own wasn’t helping it one bit.

It was like my mind was having an inner battle with itself about what to concentrate on at the moment. Either the thought of the bigger problem at hand of him knowing the secret I never wanted anyone to know, especially not him or about the position we were just in and overthinking about if it meant more to him then just comforting me which was not something I needed to be thinking about at the moment but somehow that thought was winning in my brain over the other.

“Okay, so we both know that that’s a complete lie..”, his deep voice said, confusing me for a moment till I remembered the conversation that we had kinda been having. The touching of our shoulders let me know he turned to look at me when he had said that, most likely trying to get me to look at him, trying to get me to see the concern and pleading look that was held there.

But this time I wasn’t giving in, knowing that as soon as I looked him in the eyes I would instantly break down like before because he was right, I wasn’t fine. In fact I was far from it. I was a broken down mess that needed help but refused to take it from someone who was so blatantly offering it to me.

I felt him shuffling by my side and I was fully expecting him to get up and leave me since I wasn’t cooperating with him, but instead I felt him bring his arm over to my shoulder and pull it toward him, his strong grip not giving me any room to argue with what he was doing. My eyes must have been huge as he brought me into him, not expecting to be brought into his embrace like that. He brought his other arm around me not saying a word about his actions only tightening his hold.

I expected it to be an award embrace but I Felt comforted and peaceful. It felt like all my problems were leaving me alone for now, like tae was guarding me from all the bad thoughts and dark things in my own mind. I didn’t even realize when i fully relaxed into him and just let myself let go, letting any left over just flow down my face without any sobs or sniffling. I didn’t even know when tae put his head onto my shoulder letting his own tears roll silently down his face not wanting to bother me with his own emotions at the time.

They just sat there and hugged, one of them trying to finally accept help from the person closet to him and the other trying harder than anything to conceal his feelings at the moment and not turn to kiss the broken person that was hugging him like his life depended on it.

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A/N
Woah wow ... An update of this story? Ik I'm very surprised too.. I've been meaning to update for awhile now but just got some writers block like half way into this chapter so sorry everybody

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