Never Going To Be Right {taekook/vkook au}

Chapter 19

Jimin POV
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I heard the door slam shut, thinking how that had to have woke up Jungkook. I couldn’t believe that Taehyung had actually gotten him to sleep after all that had happened. To think about it though, he must be god awful tired, I even felt tired after all the events of the day. Emotionally I felt so drained, but I knew the day was far from being over.

I brought my senses back to reality, taking in that I had four people staring intensely at me. I tried backing up to avoid them but I ended hitting my head on the wall behind me. I thought I might as well try to get out of this present situations by making some conversation.

“See, I told you we were all fine, Jungkook was obviously fine, he was just tired.”, I said, looking towards the ground to avoid their looks. I've come to know that it’s way too easy to tell when I’m lying, especially when its either Yoongi or Jin.

“Knock off the act Jimin,”, I heard Yoongi say, ”why won't you just tell us what’s happening? We know something’s up and I could tell you for a fact that one of us will go in and wake Jungkook up if we have to if you don’t tell us.”. His words didn’t come out forceful, but instead deadly calm and in a way that was way worse. I knew Yoongi was even more angry and frustrated if he sounded calm. I’d rather have someone yell at me for not saying anything instead of eerily calm and strained.

I still refused to look up at anyone and was on the verge of tears myself, not knowing how I was supposed to get myself out of this situation without hurting Jungkook in the process. With my eyes still on the ground, I saw someone approach me slowly, refusing to look up to see who it was though.

They were probably all still waiting for a response from what Yoongi said but I just didn’t know what to say. I decided to look up my curiosity winning over my fear to know who had ended up less than a foot away from me. I slowly brought my head up to face whoever was there expecting to see Jin standing there giving me a death glare because I wasn’t talking, but I really wasn’t prepared for it to be Yoongi instead. And only Yoongi. No Hoseok or Namjoon anywhere in sight. Jin was done the hallway leaning against the wall and I could tell he was frustrated but Yoongi must’ve said something to him because it looked like he was far enough away to be out of earshot.

Yoongi was directly staring at me but I was looking everywhere but at him, which was pretty hard since he wasn’t even a foot away from me.

“I see that whatever is happening is bothering you guys and that you don’t want to talk about it, but you at least need to tell me what’s up. Seriously Jimin, I don’t want to go in there and bother them but c’mon, you know all we wanna do is help and to do that we need to know what’s up with you guys.”, he said, sounding not even mad anymore but just flat exhausted.

I finally gathered the courage to look up and meet his stare, seeing a foreign emotion in his eyes, something I had really never seen before on him. Something like hurt and brokenness. I guess he really did care that much more about Jungkook than me

I felt myself lean against the wall even more coming to the realization that he really was being this caring all to know what’s up with Jungkook and not at because he cared for me. The realization hit me like a train and suddenly I felt the tears finally break the dam, falling silently down my face in what was either frustration with myself for thinking about this right now or from the weight of everything that's happening right now, I couldn’t tell which it was.

“I can’t tell you what’s happening. It’s not my thing to tell you. But I don’t think it's a good idea to go in there right now.”, I said, coming out all rushed, not caring if Yoongi understood all of it or not. I was so frustrated from all the emotions running through my head right now. All I wanted to do was go to sleep away from what was happening right now.

“Why can’t you tell me though, Jiminie? You guys obviously aren’t okay so let us help you.”, Yoongi pleaded. I shook my head back and forth. I just couldn’t do it. I couldn’t tell him what was happening. It wasn’t my place to say something that I knew would have an impact on someone’s life like this would.

“I know it looks like we aren’t okay and we aren’t but Jungkook doesn’t need this right now. Let him be. Let him tell you guys when he’s ready to. You see the state he’s in right now, why worsen it by having him be pressured to tell you now?”, Iwas basically begging Yoongi at this point. I was still locked in eye contact with him and could see as he searched my eyes for something in them for awhile. He left me feeling like he had just seen something in me that I didn’t mean for him to.

I felt his sigh against my neck and arms, giving me shivers everywhere his breath touched and making me remember how close we were. I could’ve sworn he was farther away earlier but it wasn’t like I was complaining. I was taking my time to examine his features anyway. He finally broke our eye contact turning away from me and backing up slowly before walking down the hallway with his head down. I watched as he went into his shared room with Hoseok, closing the door.

I let out a deep breath that I hadn’t known that I had been holding this whole time. I looked down the hallway to see if Jin was still there waiting to interrogate me next but the hallway was completely empty of anyone and the dorm was almost completely silently besides a few little noise here and there.

Leaning my head back against the wall and closing me eyes, I finally just took a moment to collect self, wiping all the remaining tears off my face. I took a minute to just sit there in the silence that had fallen over the dorm, trying to prepare myself for what I might be walking into next once I brought myself to get back into the room with Taehyung and Jungkook.

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A/N

Well I'm sorry it's been an inexcusably long time since I've updated but in my defense ap classes have been kicking my ass. Expect more often and better quality updates coming up (I'm not promising anything but there may be another one tomorrow if I can get it completed the rest of the way by then ;) ). And sorry for any spelling or grammar errors, I was really trying to get this up by the end of tonight so I may have done a poor editing job on this.

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