Never Going To Be Right {taekook/vkook au}

chapter 12

Jungkook pov

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I wish I could've stayed in this position forever, with Jimin laying on me and the just feeling like nothing really mattered at the moment. But of course it had to be ruined by us arriving back at the dorms after the long day. I watched as everybody slowly woke up from their sleep, yawning quietly before climbing out of the van. When Tae woke up he looked so adorable with his messed up hair and rapidly blinking eyes, that I had to look away before my face got anymore red.

After I got out of the van, Tae and Jimin following close behind me, I entered the dorm. Everybody was either heading to their rooms to take showers or going to the kitchen to get something to eat. I saw Jimin head toward the Kitchen and look back at me probably expecting me to follow him, but I was still feeling guilty after eating all that I did this morning.

So instead I headed to my shared bedroom. Once I got there I gathered up all my stuff to take a shower, before heading into the bathroom. I closed the door and locked it, setting my stuff down on the counter and turning the shower on.

As I waited for the water to get hot, I decided to go on my phone and check some stuff out. I entered my passcode and went onto twitter to see if anything new and happened since the last time I had checked. The first thing that came up was some fan posts of our the event from earlier. I started scrolling through some of them until I came upon one that had my heart sinking to my feet. It was me, but not one of my usual smiles (fake I may add) but one where I let slip the façade and you could see that something was wrong.

I felt tears stinging the back of my eyes. How could I let this happen? Everything was going so well!

I knew that I was probably overreacting and that nobody could speculate everything from just this one picture of me, right? I clicked on the picture to read the comments on it to see if I was really overreacting or not. As the comments started to come up I breathed I small sigh of relief seeing as most of them were just saying things like 'I hope he is okay' and 'I wonder what is wrong'. As I continued to look through the comments, though I began to see the ones saying all the usual things like 'good I hope he's in pain' or 'he deserves to feel bad'. I felt like I was going to break down crying.

I felt the familiar itch of every where I had cut myself previously. I wanted so badly to do it again, but my mind kept coming back to how I promised jimin that I would try not to do it again. Jimin. That's it, I need to talk to him. He'll calm me down. I stopped the running water in the shower before rushing out of the bathroom and into the bedroom to hopefully find Jimin. I completely forgot about how much of a disaster I probably looked, with tears coming down my face and slightly shaking.

When I barged into the bedroom I didn't expect to find any one in there. I especially didn't imagine the person I would absolutely hate to see me at this minute sitting next to the person I really wanted to see right now. Taehyung and Jimin were sitting on one of the beds staring at me as if I was bleeding to death on the spot. I couldn't begin to comprehend anything at the moment. It was all just a blur as turned back around and tried to head back through the door that I just came through. By this point I was almost sobbing. Taehyung was seeing me in a position I hated anyone seeing me in; weak and vulnerable.

I felt someone tug on my arm to get me to not go back into the bathroom but I just shrugged them off and got into the bathroom before successfully locking the door. I slid my back down the door until it hit the bottom. I started sobbing uncontrollably as I put my head into my hands. I could hear knocking on the door, but I ignored it. At this point I didn't care what happened I just wanted to disappear from here and have peace and quiet.

I so badly wanted to grab the thin piece of metal that was hidden in the cabinet not even two feet from me. I was trying with all my will not to grab it and drag it across my skin until I was able to pass out completely.

"If you do not come out of there right now Jeon Jungkook, I am going to tell Taehyung everything myself!", my head snapped up at the sound of Jimin's angry voice threatening me. I had two options: either go out there and tell Tae what had caused this sate of mind or let Jimin tell him and stay in here and possibly harm myself again. I shakily stood up wanting to choose the latter but choosing the better option instead. My heart was beating a hundred miles a minute by the time I was fully upright with my hand on the door. I could here Jimin start talking again but I just flung open the door before he could finish anything. My first sight was of Jimin looking like he was going to break the door down to get me any second, anger plastered all over his face. His expression immediately softened as he saw me with tears stains all over my face.

I rushed into him embracing him with all my might. He stumbled back after catching me and wrapped his arms around me. He started whispering things to me like it was going to be okay and other similar words I wasn't really hearing. All I was concerned about was wanting to stay here like this and not worry about anything forever.

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A/N

Okay so here is this piece of whatever this is. I decided I wanted to write so here this is..I hope that this isn't as big of a cliffhanger as the one before though.

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