Raegans pov
I wake up from my nap with my eyes all puffed up. I don't feel good at all I feel like I have to worst fever ever and it sucks. O shit! I haven't texted kale before I took a nap. O well it's Watever. I look at my phone and it's 10:30. Wow I've been asleep for hours now. I stretch and my arm is in so much pain and I don't know why??? I Rase my sleeve and I look and see the cuts. " o yea .... I forgot I did this" I just sit down and cry Justin will be so upset that I cut..... He's not going to want to see me.... I sweated up so bad. I roll over to my phone and text Justin
R- justin....I'm so srry ...
J- wat?? Wat are you talking about??
R- I messed up Justin I'm srry your not going to love me I should just do wats best for the both of us I love you so much never forget that. You'll always be in my heart. I'm so thankful to have you in my life...but it's time for me to go goodbye... Stay strong for me❤️😩
J- RAEGAN
J- RAEGAN ANSWER ME
J-PLS
J-DONT LEAVE ME...
J- baby...
J- I love you just tell me wat you did
J-Raegan ....
I don't respond. I go to my mom bathroom while I'm walking to her room I can just hear my mom and dad agree. Back and forth back and forth. I close my eyes and tear up while I look. I walk quietly to her room and go in the bathroom and grab her high blood pressure medication. Am I really going to do this???? Is it worth it??? I can't leave my siblings on this earth they need their brother but I can't take it I open the cap and poor about 6 of them in my hand. I sit here and ponder do I really want to do this " no no no Raegan u can't no no u can't " I say sobbing I look over to my phone blowing up by Justin and him calling me. " MOM!!! D....DAD I LOVE YOU SO MUCH NEVER FORGET THAT!!!! TELL JUSTIN I LOVE HIM AND IM SO SRRY IVE STAYED STRONG FOR WAY TO LONG.... Ily " I say screaming I here them call my name they seemed worried I here them stop wat they were doing and starting running to find me ( Raegan has a very big house so that's why they are trying to find him) I pour all 6 pills in my mouth and swallow them. I turn of the Fossett and drink so water. I sit and wait for the effects to kick in. I just rethink all of the memories I had with Justin all the fun times. It was just like yesterday when we were 5 I went over to Justin's house and we would blast music so loud that his mom starting chasing him with a slipper it was so funny. There was another time when we went out to the lake and Justin tried to act all tuff like if he could swim and he jumped in and he was drowning that dumbass I told him not to jump but did he listen nope. I had to jump in and save him 😂. I chuckle. Then the time he came out to me. He was so scared. I could just remember the look in his green eyes the fear he had in them the fear of loosing everyone.... The fear of losing me. I start to feel really loopy and sick to my stomach run to the toilet and throw up I see my mom and dad running to me they start to grow black " mom... Da-" I black out and everything stops
Ew I feel as if I did bad in this chapter but I hope y'all enjoyed!!!! Srry for any errors UGHHH school starts on Monday I actually can't wait but yea srry for that bad chapter guys ❤️❤️
