Justins pov
Raegan just grabs his stuff and leaves. This is not how I wanted this meet up to go. It's been 2 weeks since I've seen him and he's gone now. This is all my fault for getting mad. But I have a reason to. I just want him here I just want to be happy with him. Yes I can take a smile. But that's doesn't mean that I'm happy. I just want to cut and die. I don't want to be here anymore. This is all to much for me.... This is why I'm even here, because of cutting I can't just stop. That's way to hard for me. I see Tyler walk in and he notices the tears in my eyes "are you ok justin ??? What's wrong . You can talk to me about it. I'm here for you buddy" I smile. It's good to know someone here well make a new friend i guess you can say. " Y-yeah im fine, thanks" I say. " So who was that guy in here was that your brother???" I laugh my brother ??? Psh if only raegans was my brother omg it would of been an adventure. " No he's my best friend..." I say a little sad. " Uh. No he's not. I can tell he means more to you than you probably think. You can see it in your eyes justin. It's very obvious. You can't hid love. It will always find a way out" he says. Tyler's right I can't hid love. Love is something strong. But I'm only 17 what do I know about love. This l-o-v-e word is a very strong one. You can't just run around to so many random people and be like " I LOVE YOUUUUU ' that's not how it works. But is this what I'm doing to raegan??? Do I love him?? Or like him??? How can I tell the difference. It's pretty damn hard if u ask me. " Y-yeah I like him more than a friend... And I'm not sure if he likes me.... I mean we have kissed here and there and I always feel something in the kiss. And I love that feeling that I get. Its like a feeling that I can't take away a feeling that has always been there since 6th grade. He just means the world to me. He's always been by my side. Even at the hospital, when I would yell and shout and tell him to leave he would always stay. When we had big fights yes he'll leave and get mad but he finds his way back. And most of all he makes me happy. That dumb Bo can make me so happy happier than anyone else can make me feel i don't know what to name this feeling....." I say. " Justin that feeling is love. You love him and you know it. You just won't admit it" he says. He's so right but i don't want to say love. This love word is a strong word. Yes I've said it before but it's scary for me to say it right now. He maybe Hates me for yelling at him. I was just to upset to really even think at the moment. " Yea I guess, thanks Tyler" I hug him for comfort he feels so warm and nice. And I like that. " It's good to know that I have a friend here" I say while my head is in his chest.
Tyler's pov
As justin leans on my chest it feels so right. Since the first time justin took a step in this building I knew that I liked him. His beautiful eyes ah they are just wonderful who could say no to them. His amazing deep voice it sends chills down my back it's just soothing. That smile. I never really see it that often but he has an beautiful smile tbh like just look at it!! Would you date him to ?!? The only down side to this is he likes raegan. Matter a fact loves. Alot. I don't know if he likes me and I want to keep it that way for a while. I want to get to know him first I can't just jump into telling him that I like him. We've been friends for 3 days. I sigh. " Hey justin. So tell me about yourself a little I want to know more about you" I say. He looks up at me and sighs "ok, well I moved here with my dad because my mom doesn't support me. I've been bullied for all the years I've been in school. I've been bestfriends with raegan since I was 2 and I have a cutting problem I suffer from depression,anxiety, and trust issues oh and I'm trans ftm and I'm also gay" wow I didn't even know he was trans like he look masculine af. This boy is something else. I'm not surprised if he gets his line hit up evey single day " so um Tyler tell me about your self" he says. " Ok. Ummmmm I'm big on Instagram I'm gay and hmmm there's not really much to know. But I do get into drama lot" ( guys I don't know much about Tyler I'm not a hug fan of him so yeah don't hate 😂) he looks kinda uncomfortable after I said the last part.. I don't blame him I should start to clean up my act. " So why are you in this mental hospital ... Srry if it's a personal a question" he says " no no it's fine and my family things I'm crazy I don't know why so they put me in here which is pretty dumb but it's whatever I guess." He looks at me and nod. It's about 8 pm and they usually tell us to go to bed " lady's and gentlemen it's time to get into your rooms and head to bed. Do not leave your room. We will be checking your pages for anything dangerous." Oh I forgot to say the lady who owns this place make sure we are in our rooms and don't have anything harmful to us. But I don't mind because I don't do that type of stuff ( ah again pls no hate for that sentence I'm just trying to say things that Tyler would say he kinda seems like that type of person to think doing that is weird but don't harm yourself loves if you are things will get better I promise♥️ ok back to the story) but I am kinda scared about justin he's in a ruff situation. I get up so I can head to my room " no! Tyler um can you stay with me....." He says. I'm actually kinda happy??? But shocked doesn't he love raegan meh it's fine i guess. "U-h yeah! Sure no problem" I say. He gets close to me and cuddles with me " just to let you know there is nothing going on between us...... We are just friends... " He says very blunt and straight to the point. I'm kinda sad but I respect that. Well no I kinda dont ugh calm down Tyler. "Y-yeah ..." I say. I go and turn off the light and get under the blankets with justin and cuddle with him " goodnight justin" I say. I get no response all i hear are tiny snores
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Heyo guys here another update. No I'm not a big fan of jyler before anyone ask I'm just doing this for the story it will all make sense sooner or later. But it took me 3 days to write this chapter. I'm so busy with school and they only tike I write is when I'm on the bus. Like today us Friday and I have hw ughhhhhhhh. But it's fine i guess. I see that alot of people are leaving Jay it's kinda sad but I respect that if they do but I'm staying with him we are all humans and we all mistakes and as much as I get mad at him I still end up just letting it go sometimes but you know it's just life
