(it's early in the morning it's a school day and justin is the only one awake right now. It's about 5 in the morning)
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Dear baby boy or baby girl,
This is my second letter to you. I actually enjoy doing this. It makes me express how Im feeling. I think I'll do this more often. I woke up this morning to morning sickness. I guess you didn't enjoy what I ate last night huh. You are one spoiled child. Today I have school. And yes daddy has school. He's only 17!! I know shocking right. Daddy wants the best for you. I never really listen in school. But I need to for you. I need to be educated for you. We also have a doctor's appointment today. I get to see if your ok. Yes your very small right now. And we can't see your face. But it's amazing knowing that your growing inside me. Papa came last night. I'm talking about raegan by the way. I have this feeling that he is your dad. I don't know why. But u can call him papa If you want. I'll be daddy and he'll be papa. I woke up to him cuddling me last night. Huh weird right . I thought he was leaving us. I don't want you having a dead beat dad. I've tried so hard not to cry. Grandpa says I shouldn't. It's not good for you. I need to stay healthy for you. And i will. I will thrive and try to fight. I really hope i don't get hit in the stomach or anything today in school. I don't want to loose my first I almost lost my first love and that was papa. And i dont want to loose you. Well daddy has to go. I'll see you soon my angel.
Love, daddy♥️
I get done writing in my journal and I walk over to the bathroom. I look at my stomach and rub it slowly. I can feel the hardness of my belly now starting to come in.
Wow I've never imagined me getting pregnant. Not at all. But I'm scared.
I'm a boy and pregnant what will people think at school. I'm going to ask dad if I can get homeschooled once I get bigger.
U can't have a big belled boy walking in the hallways.
I sigh. This is going to be one hell of a journey isn't it. I start to feel weird in my tummy.
And I feel it go up. And up and up. O no. My child isn't having it at all.
I run to the toilet and puke my brains out.
//Time skipped//
It's about 6 in the morning. Ive just been going through Instagram. I haven't told my fans I'm pregnant.
I don't want to tell them until after the doctor appointment. Some of them are hating me bc of Tyler.
He keeps on saying that I'm a hoe. And I'm a fuck boy. Which hell I do have the looks shittttt.
I see raegan start to wake up a little. " Goodmorning Rae" I say with a slight smile.
I start to get nervous. I don't know if I should call him babe or not. I mean he hasn't talked to me in a while.
He just gets up and start to kiss me slowly and gentle. I don't mind his morning breath cause I did miss him.
I've missed everything that we did. Are lips move in sync with eachother and start to fight for eachother.
He slides his hand in my hair and pull it sexual a bit. I start to feel turned on. " More" I say while kissing him harder. He lays me gentle and softly on the bed and climb on top of me.
He start to suck on my neck hitting my sweet spot already. Damn. I moan softly cause my dad is right across the hall.
"R-raeagn" I say. It feels so good I dont want him to stop. He starts to raise up my shirt and kiss me from my neck to my chest then my stomach.
When it got to my stomach he stopped. He stopped and Just stared. He lost all motion in himself.
He starts to kiss my tummy. One by one. He kissed the left side. Then the right.
Then he started to speak.
Dear baby, I know your in there. I know you can hear me. Do u know who i am?? Probably not. I'm raegan. I don't know jf your dad has mentioned me. I want you to know something. I love your dad. I love him alot. And I want him to be happy. I want to see your face. I want to see the beautiful resemblance of your father in your eyes and face. I know you'll be a great child. Ha. I'm sorry if you heard some weird stuff doing on out here. Im srry for that. But what I'm trying to say here. Is grow. Grow and make your father proud.
He sniffs and kisses my stomach one more time.
"D-did you really mean that raegan" I say as I'm sobbing. "Every word babe." I smile and hug him.
"You know you have got be turned on right?" I say. He chuckles "yea. I know that was the whole point"
" Damn bully" I say "love you to justin. Ok get up we have school silly".
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As me and raegan check out our selfs in the mirror we start to make our way downstairs to eat some breakfast.
"Gm boys" my dad says. "Gm dad" "gm Mr. Blake" he smiles and hands us some waffles with some eggs and hot chocolate.
"Thank you dad" I say. " No problem. Now hurry up!"
We finish up and head into the car. I open the car and sit in the driver's seat. "Uh no no. What do you think your doing?" Raegans says.
"Uh talking us to school dumbass did you forget" I say with a giggle. " No I didn't forget but I want to drive us to school so let me now would u."
I sigh and let him drive. The drive is really quite. There is not much words being talked or exchanged.
I really do wonder how Ras has been. Its been an actual while since I asked.
"Hey um how everything been" I say kinda cheerfully. All he does is sigh and his grip gets tight on the wheel.
"I don't want to talk about it" he says. His voice sounding very weak and soft. I just nod.
I let him be. I don't want to get him upset nor mad. I can hear him sniffing on and off. I really want to help him. But I don't know what's wrong.
We get to school and everyone starts to point and laugh at me. It's nothing new. All I hear is. "Slut, whore, what a hoe" I blame Tyler for this.
I swear to god. If he is the father to my child. His ass better straighten tf up. Or I'll beat the hell out of that asshole.
I just calm down, and slow my breathing and head to class.
Ah. I've been full of emotions this weekend idk guys. I miss my bestfriend. School just kinda has us really busy. We never get to talk as much as we used to. It just breaks my heart..... I just don't want to end up getting replaced...
