// time skip it has been 2 weeks now//
Raegans pov
I haven't heard or seen from Justin in 2 weeks. The last time I herd from him was when he basically saved my life.... I didn't even get to say a proper thank you to him. All I remember is saying I love you to him and the getting taken away. I miss him so much. Me and my gf are over. I don't like or have feelings for her. Idk wat my feelings are right now it's juts kinda hard to tell. I miss my bestfren my soulmate my happiness my everything my bb..... I just want to talk to him I've texted him so many times. So many times that I can't even count. And all he does is read them. He's not active on anything not even Instagram or musically..... Idk if he been at school cause the doctor but me on bed rest for the rest of the month. He said me smoking weed put aloy ( haha me and my ibf inside joke aloy but I mean a lot imma leave it there just for her ok back to the story) of stress on my Heart and it didn't know how to react so it cause me to have a seizure. It was very scary I don't remember anything that happening. I decided to FaceTime Justin cause I just can't deal with not speaking to him it's killing me...... I scroll down my contacts and find Justin 💕 I press on the face time call button. It rings and rings and Rings until finally it picks up. I see Justin his face is all red he doesn't look like he has eaten I just want to hug him and tell him everything is going to be ok. But I can't ..... He says " wat do u want Rae.." As he cries some more tears. My face gets very red and I start to cry.. Why did I hurt this beautiful boy. Y didn't I tell him he trusted me he cared for me he looked out for me he is there for me he stands up for me he .... He loves me ... And wat I do I lie. I lie and don't tell him anything I keeped my distance I was being cold with him and I shouldn't of had. I let a girl mess up our frenship and that's was wrong. No one could ever replace Justin. He's doesn't even look alive rn he looks pale he looks sick I'm worried this is all my fault I should just die he would he better off without me. But will he really ???? I hurt him and look at him. He's not even stable he can't even look at me without crying or hurt in his eyes I need to makes things right with him with us.
" Justin I'm so srry I didn't mean to hurt you. I let a girl take over our frenship I didn't even try to see u once during the summer and I'm mad that I didn't I hope you can take me back. No more lies. No more hurt Justin. I can't stand seeing you like this all hurt this isn't ok. It will never b until I make things right I'm so srry-" by the end of wat I said I'm crying in tears I've never felt more srry..... Wat if I hurt him again I'm saying this stuff I mean it but nobody is perfect but I try to be the best but I fail all the time wat if I I mess up again......
Justin's pov
I'm happy I answered this call with Raegan TBH i missed him but I just needed time to myself. But I haven't ate in days I feel so weak to my bones I can't even move with out feeling light headed. I need him here I need him to play with my hair and cuddle me and tell me everything is going to be ok and I that I'll recover I've cut soooooo many times it causes me to have stitches... My dad is thinking of putting me In a mental hospital if I continue and I promised him I'll stop but I lie " I forgive you Raegan I do I was just really hurt and I need space I Haven't eat nor slept all I can think about is you Raegan I love you with all my heart I can't..... I I just can't Raegan I can't breathe pls come hurry pls Raegan h-e-l-p m-e" I feel faint I wanna throw up my chest hurts my head hurts I need him here I need him now is my world over ??? Am I dying ??? Is it my time to go??? I've cut to deep this time ??? I'm gone .... I'm long go-
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Justin is out cold on the floor he has stopped breathing he's turning blue quicker and quicker by the minute
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Raegans pov
Justin just falls he not moving not one bit I'm getting really scared I need to get to him now !!! He could be dead he's turning blue and I don't know if he's alive wat if I get there and he's dead did I loose him forever I think I have there's no turning back i lost my love..... " MOM CALL 911 NOW PLS PLS MOM PLS I DONT THINK HES BREATHINH LOOK AT HIM MOM HES BLUE ... MOM HES BLUE HES BLUE MOM HES GONE MOM WHY ME MOMMMMMM WAT DO I DO I HAVE TO GO OVER THERE MOM CALL PLS MOM PLSSS I CANT LOOSE HIM" I run and drop everything I don't think at all its raining hard out side. I reach Justin's house and bang on the door " hey Raegans wats-" I don't even let Justin's dad finish I run upstairs to him room and it's lock the door is lock " MR BLAKE OPEN THE DOOR PLS OPEN JUSTINNNNNNNMN PLSSSSSS STAY WITH ME PLSSSS " mr Blake breaks down the door I run over to Justin ... " JUSTIN!!!!! NO NO NO BB STAY WITH ME NOOOOOO HES SO COLD HES SO COLD NO GOD NO NOOOOOO WAKE UP WAKE UP JUSTIN NO!!!!!" I cry louder and and louder. I hear the ambulances come running they rush over to him and does cpr ask quick as they can..... Then I notice all the blood and cuts on his arms "NO NO JUSTIN WHY NO Y DID U HAVE TO DO THIS Y TRY AND END EVERYTHING NOW JUSTIN....... NO BB" I scream " he's lose a lot of blood we need to get him to the hospital now" the er man says " pls pls save him pls he can't die on me he can't " I say to the man " we will do anything we can sir I promise" they wheel Justin out of the house I feel so empty everything is numb I have nobody now ......
Wow this is so deep man I just can't this hurt writing it really did man I just want Justin next to me right now.. But I hope y'all enjoyed srry for any errors ❤️
