Slowly limping down the sidewalk passing a few houses, I stared up at this big, two story, white house. I took a deep breath, thinking that I could go to this one for help, hopefully. Since it looked safer.
I began to walk til I reached the porch, walking up the porch steps, then ringing the doorbell. I waited five minutes and no one answered. So then I began to lightly knock, I let a few minutes pass by. Getting the clue no one was here, I turned to leave. But I heard a doorslam and someone grab my arm. I opened my mouth to scream, But a pale-colored arm reached out to drag me inside, covering my mouth. "Shhhhh."
Remembering those light brown eyes. I smiled throwing my body against his , we landed on the floor, I was ontop of him, but I didn't care.
Hearing his lightly chuckle, he moved me off of him and got up, then wrapped his arms around my waist.
Thank goodness I walked upon Jonothans house. Wrapping my arms around him, I then began crying, burying my face into his chest.
Jonothan, with a concerned face, picked me up bridal style carrying me to the couch, he laid me down, then kneeled down, face to face with me. "Sage, whats wrong?"
"My ex, he raped me..Beat me, my step-dad beats me also. I cant do it, Jon, I cant." I cried harder.
I could see his cheeks growing red. "Fuck...Sage....." He sighed, scratching the back of his neck. "Im sorry this shit happened man.."
I sniffled. "Its okay." My stomach began to growl. "You hungry?" He asked, studying my features. I nodded yes, watching him walk into the kitchen.
Searching the fridge in the freezer, he turned back to me. "Do you..want some ice cream?"
"What kind is it?"
"Cookies N' Creme."
I smiled and nodded. "Yes, thats my favorite."
A grin spreaded, "Mine too."
Jonothan walked and got two silver spoons, grabbing the whole gallon-jar filled with ice cream, and sat it down by me. He walked upstairs, each certain stair having a creaking noise.
I looked around, What a nice house this is, I thought to myself. Jon walked downstairs a few minutes later. "I have Friday, Friday After Next, Frozen, E.T, Fast And Furious, And The Goonies, which do you wanna watch, love?"
I thought for a second, "Um, Friday After Next."
Jonothan.
I popped the movie in before bringing her on the carpet with me so we could eat our ice cream. I grabbed the remote and turned the TV up too medium. I feel bad as fuck, all I wanted to do was get into Sages pants, but now I realize she needs love, she's unable to care for herself. She needs me to be there, not to just use her, but to be there. And I want to be there, I dont wanna be a player anymore, but thats how my dad raised me, I'd watch him abuse my mom, cheat on my mom, force my mom to have sex. All in front of me, and I remember trying to help her when I was around twelve, but he'd beat me til I was lying in my own puddle of blood. and if my mom tried to help me, the same or worse went for her. But I dont know where my dad is, the last thing i've heard from him to me was, "To win the game, you have to be the game. To be the game, you've gotta know how the game is played. And to know how the game is played, you've gotta be the control, you've gotta be the first game player, meaning, grab as many women as you want, if they step out of hand, beat them. If you want something from them, force them. I just gave you the tutorial, now if you fail your first level, I will know." I could still hear his booming voice in my head. My mom has trust issues now, her light brown eyes would always be filled with misery, but she'd always try to stay strong, taking care of me. "Jonothan, I will never let anyone hurt you. If so, anyone, anything, will have to get through me. I love you. Life is a picture. You draw it, you color it, you cut it, you tear it, but you can redo it." Thats what she'd always say to me. My mom is currently in California taking care of my sick uncle. I smiled thinking about her. Then I realized, what i've done to Alyssa, what i've said to Jessica. I was listening to my dad, not my mother. And I dont have control over my child now, I dont want Alyssa to get an abortion, but im just not ready, i've got healing to do. And I need Sage there with me. I smiled as she lied her head on my shoulder, closing her eyes.
