Stay Down

Chapter 7-Save Her Lord

I Could Sit And Lie And Say That I Wasn't Hurt Or Lie And Say I Wasn't Heartbroken Over The Break Up

It Was One Of The Most Painful Thing I've Experienced With Any Guy I Went From Spending Almost Every Day With This Nigga To Not Speaking To Him At All

He Wasn't Calling Me And I Damn Sure Was Calling Him I Didn't Hate Him I Just Hate What He Did

Humiliating And Making Look So Damn Stupid...I Damn Near Killed My Own Mother For Him And He Just Made Look Like A Fool

I Admit I Was A Fool For Him,A Fool For Even Thinking I Was Really In Love

Mad At Myself For Even Giving Him A Chance I Hate Myself For Believing All The Things He Was Saying To Me

About How He Was So In Love With Me Or How One Day We Gon Get Marry...I Should Of Never Fell For None Of That Shit

Never Again I Made A Promise To Myself To Never Give Another Man The Chance To Hurt Me

My Mother Was Finally Home She Was Put On Strict Bedrest So Me And Adrien Was Helping Out At Home We Cooked And Cleaned For My Mother Every Single Day I Even Started Doing Laundry For The First Time Ever

I'll Do Anything Just Stop Thinking About That Boy

I Was Laying In Bed With My Mother She Smiled And Looked Over To Me

"I Should Have A Heart Attack More Often I Never Seen This House So In Order Before"My Mother Said As She Laughed

"Yea"I Said Dryly

"Oh Adrianna Im Tired Of You Seeing This Way....Go Ahead And Go See That Boy Please Before I Have To Hurt You"She Said

"What.??"I Said Confused

"Chris..You Miss Him Right?? So Go See Him Im Sure Adrien And I Can Maintain"She Said

"I Can't Go See Him Ma...We Broke Up"I Said

"What"She Said Surprised

"Yup You Don't Ever Have To Worry About Him Again"I Said With Tears In My Eyes

"Im Just Tired Of Crying So Much...Im Tired Of Being Sad Im Tired Of Thinking About Him"I Vented

"Those Break Ups Will Do It To You Its Almost Like Your Dying With Him...But Baby He Didn't Make You And He Cannot Break You"She Said

"He Can Make Me Breakdown"I Said

"Yeah But Baby You Was Living Before He Came Along And Your Going To Keep Living He Can't Bring You Down Unless You Let Him Thats Thought Thats Getting Me Through This Whole Divorce"She Said

And Than I Started Feeling Sick To My Stomach

"I Think Im Going To Vomit"I Said As Held My Hand Over My Mouth And I Rushed To The Bathroom

I Dropped On My Knees And I Began Throwing Up

After I Threw Up It Hit Me That I Still Haven't Had A Period

And The Last Thing I Wanted To Do Is To Tell My Mother I Think Im Pregnant When She Just Had An Heart Attack

So I Thought To Just Take A Test And If I Am Pregnant Than Ima Have To Face That Music

But Im Almost Sure Im Not For The Simple Fact That I Finally Made The Decision That I Was Going To Go In School Chicago Next Year

I Just Had To Know If I Was Pregnant Or Not The Possibility Was Killin Me

So Me And Sydney Went To A Drug Store And We Was Looking At Some Pregnancy Test And I Was Afraid For My Life

Why Did I Let Myself Get Here At This Point I Thought To My Self I Went From Falling In Love To Standing In A Asle Filled With Pregnancy Test