Chapter 23-Is It Really Over?

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I Try To Take It One Day At A Time Im Learning Who I Am As Woman All Over Again

My Heart May Be Broken Just A Bit But Im Still Breathing And I Still Two Children To Give All My Love Too

A Few Weeks Later My Daughter Ariyah Marie Sanchez Was Born Beautiful And Healthy

And After That Stressful Ass Pregnancy Im Just Thankful That My Babygirl Is Just As Strong And Healthy

8 Pounds And 7 Ounces A Head Full Of Hair And Perfect

She Looks Just Chris Mostly I Can't Physically See My Self In Her Yet But She Already Fiesty And A Crybaby Just Like Me

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She Looks Just Chris Mostly I Can't Physically See My Self In Her Yet But She Already Fiesty And A Crybaby Just Like Me

Chris Didn't Even Show Up To The Hospital He Was "Out The Country" And I Guess That Was More Important Than His Daughter Being Born But Whats Else Is New ?

My Mother Flew Down To Atlanta To Help Me With The Baby

I Had Just Moved Into A New Apartment So I Could Use The Extra Help

Not Being Without Chris Is The Most Difficult Thing About Not Being With Chris

I Been With Him For 3 Years He's All I Know He's All Im Use Too

I Never Been With Anyone Else Before Chris Was Supposed To Be My First And My Last

But It Didn't Work Out Like That At All

Thanks To Chris Never Do I Ever Wanna Even Open My Heart Up To Another Man Again

I Will Never Ever Love Anyone The Way That I Loved Chris Ever Again

I Just Wanna Get Back To Being Me Who I Was Before Chris Came Into My Life

I Hate To Say It But I Missed Him And I Hated That I Missed Him

I Hated He Fucked Up Everything In Our Lives I Hate That He's Not Home With Me And The Kids Right Now

But I Never Once Hated Him Just Hated His Ways And The Shitty Things He's Done To Me

You Don't How Strong You Are Until Your Only Choice Is To Be Strong

And After All The Pain And Tears The Sun Has To Shine Again Well At Least I Hope It Do

Because Right Now Im Not Happy At All

I Was Sitting On The Couch Holding Ariyah

And Cj Was Sitting Next To Me Watching Cartoons

My Mother Was In The Kitchen Frying Chicken And It Smelled Soo Good

Christopher Was Supposed To Come Over Today To See His Kids But He Was Supposed To Be Here Hours Ago

And He Still Haven't Got Here Yet

I Put Ariyah Down In Her Swing And I Went In The Kitchen Where My Mother Was Cooking

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