Stay Down

Chapter 8-Not Apart Of The Plan

I Couldn't Sleep,I Couldn't Eat,I Couldn't Function Correctly I Even Called Her Phone Like She Was Really Going To Answered

Shit Felt Like A Dream

I Just Stared At A Blank Wall Thinking About All She's Been Through And All We Been Through Together And How Mad I Was At Her For Doing This To Her Self

Im Mad At Her For Leaving Me

Why Wouldn't She Come To Me Like She Always Do

Why Didn't I See This Coming And Why Did She Feel Like This Was The Only Way Out

I Had So Many Questions And She Wasn't Here To Answer Any Of My Questions

As Bad As I Was Handling This Adrien Was 50 Times Worst

He Don't Even Come Out His Room All He Downs Is Play Old Sad Songs Over And Over Again

My Mother Walked In Room

"I Made Your Favorite My Famous Pot Roast Its Fresh Out The Oven"My Mother Said

"I Can't Eat"I Said

"I Made Caramel Apples Too"My Mother Said Trying To Cheer Me Up

"Can You Bring Sydney Back"I Asked

And My Mother Was Just Quiet

"Ma I Could Of Prevented This"I Said

My Mother Sat On My Bed And Said "What You Mean"

"Ma Sydney's Step Father Was Sexually Abusing Her"I Confessed

"Oh My God…Why Didn't You Tell Me This Sooner"She Said

"Because I Promise I Wouldn't"I Cried

"Oh Adrianna Don't You Know That Secrets Make You Sick"My Mother Said

And When My Mother Said That I Just Felt Like It Was Right To Confess Everything At That Moment

"Me And Sydney Took Pregnancy Test Last Week And She Was Pregnant" I Said Feeling Bad

She Looked At Me And Asked "Wait Why Did You Take A Pregnancy Test"

"Because I Haven't Got A Period But I Took The Test And It Was Negative"I Said Wiping My Eyes

"Your Having Unprotected Sex"She Said Looked At Me Shameful Look On Her Face

"Was"I Said As I Looked Down

"Adrianna You Promise Me You Would Come To Me Before You Have Sex We Talked About This"She Said

"I Know Look Ma I Already Feel Bad Enough About The Only Friend I Ever Have Is Gone Now"I Said

My Mother Calmed Down And Said "Your Right We'll Just Get Up Early In The Morning And Go To The Clinic And Ima Make Sure You Not Pregnant"

Adrien Walked In He Was In A T-shirt And Basketball Shorts

He Was Really Going Through It

He Stood At My Doorway And Said "Everytime I Closed My Eyes I See Her"

Than He Smiled As A Tear Fell Down "I Don't Think I've Cried So Much...She Needed Me And I Couldn't Even Be There For Her"

Than He Started Banging His Head Against The Wall  "I Wasn't There For Her"

My Mother Got Up And Said "Adrien Stop!"

Than My Mother Place Her Hands On His Head As He Said "She Was The Love Of My Life And I Never Got The Chance To Prove It To Her All She Wanted Was The Props She Deserved Mama"