Stay Down

Chapter 24-Deal

Who Would've Thought My Life Would Be Like This Im Not Even 21 Yet And Im Going Through A Divorce With Two Kids

I Often Ask Myself God What Is Going On My Life ?

Its Bittersweet Every Day I Wake Up

Sometimes I Ask Myself If Im Even Doing The Right Thing And Soon As I Think That I Get A Call From Nyla Saying She Wanted To Talk To Me

What Im Confused About Is What Exactly Is It That She Wants To Talk About

Talk About How She Didn't He Was A Married Man

There Is Nothing To Talk About On This Side

But She Kept Sending Texts Kept Callin Me Kept Dmin  Me To The Point Where I Thought Okay Fuck Lets Do It

So I Gave In And I Agreed To Meet With Her

While My Mother Watched The Kids I Met Nyla At Applebees

Might As Well Eat Good If I've Gotta Sit Here And Listen To This Shit Again

I Ordered Some Honey BBQ Boneless Wings Some Fries And A Large Water With Lemon

I Tried Calling Chris While I Was Sitting There Waiting For Nyla To Get There But He Wasn't Answering

Nyla Finally Got There And The First Thing I Did Was Look At Her Little Baby Bump

And It Hit Me Right There And Than He Really Having A Baby By This Girl

I Wasn't So Unbothered Now

Nyla Was Pretty But She Wasn't Me

Im Trying To See What Is It About Her That Made Him Fall For Her In The First Place

What Made Him Risk It All

It Must Of Been Something Special About Her Maybe Its The Way She Smiled At Him Or Maybe It Was The Conversations Between Them

It Had To Be Something Special Something I Was Lacking Something I Was Missing

Never Felt So Less Than In My Whole Life

Im Looking At A Part Of Him Inside Of Her Her And Hurts It Hurts More Than Anyone Could Know

She Smiled And Said "Thank You For Sitting Down With Me Adrianna"

Than She Sat Down Infront Of Me

I Don't Know If I Should Be Friendly,Hateful,Upset,Or What

I Didn't Know How To Feel About This Im In The Middle Of Healing I Dont Need This Shit Right Now

"I Don't Mean To Be Rude But I've Gotta Get Back To My Kids Cj Has A Dentist Appointment Today So Whatever You Wanna Talk About Do Us Both A Favor And Make It Quick"I Said

"Okay No Problem…I Just Wanted To Reach Out To You I Feel So Bad.…I Never In My Life Slept With A Married Man  Before Im Not Like That  But The Pain I've Cause You And Your Family Eats Me Up Every Night"She Said

"Im Sure It Does But I Don't Blame You At All…I Blame Christopher I Married Him Not You He Supposed To Be Faithful And True To Me He Said I Do To Me Thats Who I Have A Problem With Not You Nyla "I Said

"But You Should Hate Me Too I Help Destroyed Your Marriage Too"She Admitted

"My Marriage Wasn't So Perfect Before You Slept with Him Look Your Just Pregnant And Emotional Right Now Is This Your First Baby"I Asked

"Yes"She Said As Tears Fell Down Her Eyes

"Nyla You Seem Like A Nice Girl You Really Do In A Sense You Kind Of Remind Me Of Myself…Look I Know How Easy It Is To Believe His Lies I Do It All The Time…Im Not Going To Hate You I Don't Even Hate Him I Hate No One I Have Too Much Love To Hate Anyone"I Said.