Stay Down

Chapter 27-For Better

He Was Laying There On The Ground Unconscious

"Oh God"I Said As I Quickly Dropped To My Knees

And I Began Shaking Him And Screaming His Name From The Top Of My Lungs

But He Wasn't Waking Up I Listen To His Heart Beat And It Was Still Beating And He Was Still Breathing He Just Wasn't Wakin Up

I Called 911 And I Began Panicking My Hand Were Shaking So Much I Could Barely Hold The Phone Straight

"Chris Get Up ! "I Screamed At Him

He Had Overdosed

The Ambulance Came And Rushed Him To The Nearest Hospital

The Doctor Were Working On Him

While I Was In The Waiting Area Losing My Mind

I Worried Myself To Death Almost

I Didn't Want Them Doctors To Tell Me That He Died

All The Shit We Was Going Through Don't Even Matter

The Divorce,The Restraining Order,All That Shit Didn't Matter Right Now

The Only Thing I Was Focused On Was Not Losing Him

When It All Comes Down To It He Is The Father Of My Kids And I Still Love Him

Im In The Waiting Room Waiting For The Longest

And The Longer I Waited The Worse I Kept Thinking

Jimmy Was There But Other Than That Chris Doesnt Have Any Family

His Father Was Locked Up His Mother Was In A Nursing Home He Had No Sisters No Brother His One Bestfriend Locked Up

All He Had Was Me I Am His Family All The Family He Really Got

Life Is Really Too Short And Moments Like This Where That Statement Makes The Most Sense Ever

All The Shit We Agrue About The Shit I Was Mad About Holding Grudges None Of That Matters

I Knew He Had A Problem But Never Thought He Would Just Overdose Like This

This Is When I Finally Realized How Big His Addiction Was

He Grew Up With An Abusive Father Who Was On Drugs And The Shit His Father Did To Him And His Mother Still Bothered Him Even Now As An Adult

His Addiction Started When He Tried To Forget What Happened To Him

And This New Lifestyle He Was Livin Didn't Make It No Better At All

Popping Pills Chasing It With Liquor  Just So He Can Escape His Thoughts

I Know How Deep This Is I Know How Hurt He Is I Know That He Has Problems And Yet I Never Even Attempt To Help Him

Maybe All This Shit He Been Doing To Me Was All A Cry For Help To Save Him From Him

This Is What Happen When You Let Pain Take Over You

I Just Know I Can't Go Home Tonight Looking My Son In His Eyes Telling Him Daddy Is Gone And Is Never Coming Back

How Am I Supposed To Explain That To A Two Year Old?

As Im Sitting There Thinking About All Kinds Of Shit

The Doctor Comes Out And Said "He's Stable Now"

And Im Just So Relieved

"Great! Just In Time We Can Still Catch Our Flight Hey You Think We Can Leave Out The Back Entrance We Don't Need Any Paparazzi Snapping Pics"Jimmy Said.