who to hate? || Anthony Trujillo (3rd BOOK of Who To Blame? SERIES)

Nothing Can Heal Me

••••Chance's POV••••
This is 2 days after the tragedy between Z and Anthony. I gotta admit it, Anthony is such a dick for being a cheater and an animal. But aside from that, he's still and will always be my bro and he would never get trough anything without me, and i'll protect Zeeva with all my life. And i had a nightmare last night. I was thinking about her all day. I think she's pregnant and she hides it from us. She must felt bad for herself. But i wish i was wrong, cuz baby is a big fucking deal yo

I rarely go to the club with Anthony recently. I just can't stand seeing her unhappy like this. She never ask me about the ring or even Anthony himself. I found the ring on the corner and gave it back to Anthony.
Im just scared if he gives it to Avery instead of giving it back to Zeeva. He's fucking crazy.

••••Back to Z's POV••••
I woke up super late and my stomach hurt like a fucking atomic bomb was explode inside of me. I run to the bathroom and throw up more than twice. I hate throwing up so damn much. I cried in pain. My throat felt like its being sliced hundred times.

Then Emilio and Ivan comes over making me cover my face in embarrassment. "Zeeva enough, you'll hurt yourself" Emilio patting my back as he wipe my mouth with a bunch of tissues. "Are you sick?" Ivan helps me up and we sit next to each other on the couch. My head spinning, my legs weak, my eyes blurry, my throat hurt, i just can't do anything. "Zeeva you're late" Chance kneel down looking at my watery eyes. "I know.. just don't say that" I lean my head back letting the tears hit my ears. "No. You have to check it! You gotta stay healthy" Chance holds my hand but i was too weak to hold onto. Then i saw Emilio's eyes widen as he started to understand what we're talking about "No way...." Ivan gasped as he realised it and hugs me tight delivering warmth all over my body.

"Here. I knew this would happen so i bought this for you" Jake hands me a pregnancy test. I glare at him just can't believe my eyes. Where i am now? I was a broke and lonely teenage girl in the middle of Ohio with 1 friend and then now im here in the team10 house falling in love with a rapist psycho and taking a fucking pregnancy test.

What a journey...

"Thanks, i'll keep it. Im not ready for this yet you know..." I wipe my tears. "We're humans and we'll never ready for changes. But keep this in mind that we're facing every phases together and thats the only thing that matters" Jake replies with such a wide and genuine smile on his mouth. "So that's the pickle for huh?" Chance smirks making me laugh. Then i run to the bathroom and take the test with me. Praying for this not to happen but guess what? There's a baby inside of me. I don't even know what to do now

Then i come out from th bathroom and they waits outside staring at my weak limb. "You know the answer" I frown but Chance running after me hugging me and lifting me up then spinning me around in excitement. But im the exact opposite and i know Emilio could feel it too.

"Congratulation Zeeva! Buckle up we're going to be uncles soon" Jake is shaking my shoulder. Emilio and Ivan hugs me tight "Don't worry small Anthony, we got you" I laugh as i hear Ivan whispers to my stomach. "We're here to help you out, no worries" Chad smiles.

"But.. how can i.." I frowned. "Don't worry, i got you" Chance pat my shoulder. He knows me best for sure.

The whole day was super chill and Anthony is looking good today. I guess he wanna hang out with his bitch. I was chilling with Jake, Chancy, Chad, and Martinez twins the whole day talking about random stuff like i personally love. Then Anthony walks to us "Sup Chad" "Where you goin bro?" "You know the game yo, gotta let the boys live" I rolled my eyes hearing his bullshit. "Yo Chance, Jake. Want me to pick up some stuff?" "No thanks" Chance was not really in mood. "Cola and water seems cool" Jake waves him goodbye and he's not even talking to me what the fuck.

"See?! How the fuck can i talk to him?!" I was super temperamental due to pregnancy. "He's so disappointing" Emilio shakes his head then lean his head to my shoulder. Chance was quiet.

Honestly i can't be mad of him. I was burning outside, but im dying inside. Felt like being punched in the face and stabbed on the chest with a dagger over and over again.
What if he don't want the baby
What if he don't want me too
What if i ended up a single parent
Im drowning on my worries

Then my phone ring cutting me out from the thoughts of bad possibilities
"Hello?"
"Who's this?"
"Chance told me about it"

Then my heart dropped when i know that im talking with my dad now

"I..Im sorry" Im shaking, i don't know what to feel. I shouldn't apologise since its not my fault and i dont wanna admit that this person is my father cause im living all by my self all this time.

"No im the one who should beg an apology... this is my choice, i left you. I abandoned you for so long. This is all my fault" Well, he's damn right.

"What should i do now?" I do not remember any shit from biology class cuz anatomy is fucking complicated and my dad is a fucking doctor.

"I've told Chance to take you here. Have you talked to Anthony about it?"

"N..no.." My eyes watery as i begin remembering his ignorance for letting me handle this shit on my own.

"You have to tell him, then i gotta check the baby" Then he end the call and i can hear him almost cracking in pain.

I stand there leaning to the wall and everyone still staring at me wondering what am i going to say. But i didn't say a word.

Second by second, minute by minute, hours by hours past but Anthony still out there having so much fun while im here fighting with my heart to stop caring about him. I throw up 5 times now and my eyes were swollen. Nothing can heal me at this point. Not even Anthony.

Then i lay my body down on the coach letting my mind rest a little bit until i realise the door was opened slowly and i smell Anthony's perfume even from far away. I open my eyes fully, running. Not even trying to adjust my vision. Then i stopped as i bumped to his strong chest. Then i look up to him "Where have you been?"

"Out with some friend. How was your day? You seems tired" Then he walk pass me. Acting like im fucking okay and not crying my self to sleep for hours and not throwing up 5 times. My jaw dropped at his attifuckingtude.

"We need to talk" i clear my throat