I was trying to do something normal
Like eat
I was trying to be normal
But suddenly...
I felt it.
My stomach churned
The tips of my fingers were numb
My mouth refused to swallow
As I pretended to smile at my friend.
They all have no idea
They look ok they surface
And see
Perfectly
Fine
I was trying to be normal
And sleep in anger that wasn't my own
Just for one night
But then I felt it
I began to feel nauseous
My arms were weak
I tossed and turned all night
Never getting sleep.
They all have no idea
They look at the surface
And see
Perfectly
Okay
All I want
Need
Is someone to say, "are you okay?"
And even though I might lie
And say yes
I want them to read my mind.
My wants and needs are impossible.
I need someone to know me so well
That they always know
When it's happening
They always know
When the panic sets in.
