< taken from an email between me and a good friend >
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so last night i was in an emo mood and i wrote two poems because i'm the worst friend lol
and then i realized how much i want a boyfriend like not because i just do but because i want someone to just really really really like me
and like i know you do obviously, but it's different, because with a partner there's like levels of it, with a best friend you stop at best friend level yknow ? but with a boyfriend it's like someday you can go past the best friend level i guess
and i just want someone to hold me really tight when i'm scared and i want someone to know me so well they can tell when i'm sincerely scared and can even tell when i'm trying to hide it and they can tell when it's okay to push me to do something and when i need to just be left alone and when i need to leave the situation and when i need help or just a hug
but i'm too much all the time like all i do is talk and then when i talk about stuff i like i'm too much all the time ! i talk too much a lot and i'm just loud and annoying and i say things on accident that i shouldn't say and no one would ever want that and i don't blame them, if i had to hang out with myself for a day i'd kms
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