Did You Miss Me?

Depression

Riley's P.O.V.

I haven't slept, I haven't eaten I haven't spoken in 2 days. I cant. Why did I have to put myself through this shit again. Why didn't I listen to myself when I said that Nate was a bad guy. I listened to everyone else besides myself and look where that got me.

My phone died the night of the party. I didn't bother to charge it. Im just done, after everything thats happened. Why did I ever think anyone would want me. Nobody wants me. I am a worthless peice of crap that everyone kicks around the street.

I decided that I need something to drink. I would of just drank the tap water to avoid confrontaton downstairs but I don't even care anymore. I got up out of my bed that smells of tears and wet makeup, and trudged downstairs.

All convesation stopped when I walked through the kitchen door.

Corinne broke the silence by asking "You good now?"

For the first time and two days I spoke and it sounded like sandpaper being scratched so I drank my water and then said " No I not good yet."

"All he did was cheat on you with a hot girl whats the big deal?" Jacob said.

"What did you just say?" I replied.

"Well, Cassy is hot. She has hips and big boobs. No wonder Nate cheated on you." Jacob said smugly.

Tears began to well up in my eyes as I thought about it. Cassy was pretty. She had a perfect body, and she was willing to so much more than I was. I guess it makes sense why I wasn't a satisfaction.

" Obviously, because I've always been ugly! I was never good enough for anyone. I was never good enough, as anyone. Because I like to stay covered and I like to be silent and I never had the curves and I never had the chest-" at this point there were tars streaming down my face like someone was pouring buckets from my eyes.

"I'll always just be a toy to everyone.' I said really quietly.

"Riley-" Owen said trying to walk towards me.

I shook my head vigorously from side to side. I looked at the water bottle in my hands and thought I deserve to be dehydrated.

I ran upstairs back up to my room and slammed the door. I looked around the room and let out a scream of frustration that was so loud I bet Mexico could hear. Then I looked to my left and saw a glint oflight in the bathroom. it was a reflection of light that came off of a razor.

Edward's P.O.V.

"DUDE WHATS YOUR PROBLEM!" I yelled charging at Jacob. "WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT TO RILEY YOU DOUCHEBAG!"

"I was just stating the truth. And maybe if she wasn't being so stupid then she wouldn't have this problem and I wouldn't have said it." Jacob said.

I opened my mouth to say something when I heard a scream, that scream that sounded like a scream of frustration coming from Riley's room. I would go up there and talk to her but I feel like she needs time.

But I realized that she hasn't come down to eat in 2 days. I was beginning to get worried. Well I still am worried..

Nates P.O.V (Oh la la)

Im a loser, Im a mother effing loser. What have I done. I was so drunk. And she came on to me. And I kept it going. I've sent text after text. I tried call after call and nothing.

I lost Riley, forever. NO! It cant be, I cannot loose her. I wil get her back. I have to.. I need her.

Riley's P.O.V.

I have the razor in my hand. I want to ease the pain, Im just dulling it out. I'll stop sooner or later. I put the cold metl to my skin and pressed it in. I bit my tongue to hold back a scream but the tears flowed freely.

I made 3 cuts into my now bloody arm and I feel at peace.

I cleaned the cuts and wrapped them so I could take a shower. I showered and lotioned. I put on a long sleeved black shirt, with dark blue deni shorts. I felt better now that I have found my little escape.

I will start eating again but only a little.. I don't want to get any fatter than I already am. I cleaned my room, vacuumed and dusted. I wanted to be comfortable so I decided to go downstairs to watch tv.

I put my hair in a messy bun and walked downstairs.

I waslked to the living room where the tv was and sat in front of it. I turened on the television and turned on Captain America. Eventually everyone gathered around and watched as well. I saw Jacob looking at me and I mouthed 'I hate you' and he looked at me with pained eyes and went to his room.

I cuddled into Edward's chest. He is so muscular but he is so fluffy at the same time. I would date him, but he is a player.

The movie ended and Cat came up with the idea of playing truth or dare. They all sat in a circle, and Owen tried to help me up by grabbing my wrist.

I sceamed and hissed in pain from someone making contact with my cuts.

"Whats wrong?" Edward said rushing towards me.

"Nothing." I said holding my wrist and wincing.

"Well, with a scream like that t obviously cant be nothing" Edward said very sternly.

"Let me see.." he said.

"NO don't touch me!" I secreamed.

He pulled me up and grabbed my wrist pulling it towads him.

"NO!" I yelled, using my small arms as an advantage and pulling out of his grip.

"Riley!" he yelled.

I ran to my room trying to hide but he was fast as well.

"Riley!" he yelled getting closer to me. I ran into my room with no time to lock it, I ran inside my closet at the end behind some dresses. I could hear him searching when he finally reached the closet. He began to look around then he found me.

"Go a-aw-ay." I said weakly.

"Let me see." he said.

"No.. Please just let it go." I said. (no pun intended)

"No I wont let it go."he said. Then he straddled me and pinned my arms to the top of my head. Then he grabbed my arms and he began to pull the sleeve down as I screamed and cried and struggled. He pulled my sleeve all the way to my elbow and flipped my arm so he could see the inside..