Did You Miss Me?

Worthless

*RILEY'S P.O.V.*

Thursday. I have so much to do today its not even funny. I am not ready to take on the day. Like at all.

I coax myself out of my beautiful, fuzzy and warm bed and get up. I strip down and get into the shower, still with my eyes closed.

I began thinking about my schedule today. I a science and math test today. I have gymnastics after school. I have homework. And I have to study for a social studies test. Shemurrr..

I also need to do my hair, and give myself a manicure and a pedicure. And I have to clean my room. Okay. Let's see if I can pull this off.

As I was thinking about my internal to do list, I was absentmindedly washing my body.

I got out of the shower, dried off and lotioned.

For clothes I picked out gray sweatpants, a white v-neck, and white converse.

I decided to give my eyes a break today so I didn't put in my contacts.. I actually wore my glasses and my retainer.

Then, I put my hair into two cute pigtails.

I grabbed my phone and my book bag and headed downstairs to the kitchen. I saw everyone in the kitchen.

"HEY!" I yelled making my presence noticed.

"Why hello there. You look very cute today." Corinne said.

"Thanks!" I blushed.

I got an apple from the fridge and started eating.

"So what are the driving arrangements for today?" I asked.

"I have gymnastics right after school so.." I said.

"I guess I'll go by myself." I said after hearing no replies.

I walked out the door and got into my car. I closed the door and began driving.

Pompeii by Bastille came on. That is my jam. I began tapping my fingers on the wheel and singing.

'And the walls kept tumbling down in the city that we loved!'

'Gray clouds roll over the hills bringing darkness from above!'

'But if you closed your eyes. Does it almost feel like nothing changed at all?'

I sang the entire song, rather loudly I might add.

I finally drove up tithe school and got out of the car. Everyone was staring at me. I felt very uncomfortable, I don't like attention. But I didn't want them to know they were getting to me.

I walked into the building. Then there was whispering. Some laughing. Whats so funny?

"Oh the nerd is back." I heard an oh-so familiar voice say. Cassy.

"Leave me alone." I say.

"Why would I do that? This is beginning to get fun." She sneered.

"Just leave me alone." I huffed and walked away.

"Don't walk away when Im talking to you." She grabbed my shoulder and pushed me so I was forced to turn around.

"Your such a little slut. Your ugly and worthless." She said.

"Thats nothing I've never heard before." I say.

"Then how about this.. You are disgusting. You know your worth nothing, thats why you cut yourself isn't it. You come back to school thinking your all hot when your the same girl you were 3 years ago. A skank. A bitch. And a freak." She said.

I had no words. Everyone just watched us. I am worthless. I am a nerd. I am a freak.

But I will not give her the satisfaction. Nobody needs to know about this.

I wont cry now. I will cry at home, when I have my razor near by.

*CORINNE'S P.O.V.*

Riley had already gone to school so we all just arrived.

I saw Riley standing at her locker taking books out and putting them into her bag.

"Hey Riley!" I said.

"Hey guys." Riley said.

We all walked and talked on our way to class.

We got to Homeroom and we all sat down and continued out conversations.

Riley seemed a little quiet but thats usually how she is, so I didn't think much of it.

Eventually, our Homeroom teacher came in and took attendance. Then we had another 10 minutes to talk and get ready for the day.

Just 9 subjects.. Hopefully Jesus is on my side today.

*GYM*

7th period. Gym. Riley has not spoken to all of us all day. Thats weird, but maybe she is just having one of those days. I'll ask later.

In gym I overheard Cassy and her friends saying things about Riley. And they were speaking rather loudly.

Riley looked like she was about to cry but she was holding it back very well.

For a lot of people it would be hard to tell if Riley was about to cry. But its not hard for her best friends.

Her hands start to shake, she blinks really fast and she breathes really heavy. She also avoids eye contact.

I wonder whats wrong.

*RILEY'S P.O.V.*

End of the day.

I have gymnastics. I don't care what happens, I will always go to gymnastics. It relieves my stress, and takes my mind off things.

And Cassy isn't here. Thats because the only sport she plays is spreading her legs.

Anyway, I started on floor and I worked through the entire 2 and a half hours I had to be there.

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I pulled into the driveway and got out of my car. I took in a deep breath and walked into the house.

Everyone was on the couch watching television.

"Hey." I said.

They all turned around.

"Hey." They all replied. Nice dialogue.

They all looked like they were going to start questioning me so I just ran upstairs into my room and locked the door.

I stripped down and went into the shower. As I was washing myself I began to think over the days events. I felt like a piece of shit all day. I am a piece of shit. I look like a piece of shit. Why do I even have a boyfriend? Just as a charity case? Ugh.

I stumbled my way out of the shower. And looked into the mirror. I hated what I say.

Your worthless.

Your ugly.

Your fat.

Next thing I knew I was dragging a razor down my skin. They are all right, I am ugly, and fat, and worthless. I just wanna scream.

I wrapped my cuts and walked into my bedroom to put on some clothes. I put on sweatpants and a longed sleeved shirt.

Why?

Why does this always happen?

Why is my life like this?

"AHHHHHHHHH!" I let out an ear piercing scream. And began to sob.

I just felt so disgusted. So helpless. Like such a waste of space. So worthless.