Did You Miss Me?

To Be Broken

*Riley's P.O.V.*

Monday. The cursed day that starts off a new week of torture. I know Im a nerd and all but when people begin to pick on you for only being youself yor feelings tend to change.

I roll over and look at the clock. 6:00 am. Why does school have to start so early. Based on my studies, a normal human brain does not begin to function or accept information until 10:00 am.

Whatever. I roll out of my bed and walk into the bathroom to take a shower. As I was washing myself I thought about things.

Would anyone ever love me? Am I really that bad looking, or I do I have such a bad personality that I am a boy reppelant? Whats wrong with me?

Oh well.. I guess I'll never really know whats wrong with me.

I walked into my closet and looked around, then I thought to myself. Why am I like this? Why do I care? Why cant I just be confident and happy. Oh yeah I forgot evert time Im happy it gets ruined.

All these thoughts that were goinh around in my head seemed to make my throat close tighter and tighter until I couldn't breathe. And when I did breathe the breaths were uneven.

After almost dying, I collected myself and continued my outfit search.

I picked some ripped light blue shorts, with a whte flowy crop top, and my white converse.

Now for the question that puzzles us all! What am I going to do with my hair?

I should try something new with my hair today with my hair. Lol, nope. I put my hair up in a messy bun like a boss. I decided today was going to be a makeup day so I put on black eyeliner and some mascara. I took a long look in the mirror and told myself that I could do this. If I believe I can then I guess I can right! I grabbed my phone and my bookbag, and headed downstairs. I decided to flaunt the fact that I got ready before everyone else so I wrote a note.

Dear Other People That Live In This House,

I, Riley Edwards left the house before all you losers! I am the official gangster of this house and ya'll should bow down to me. Who's the slow one now! :P

Love,

The Main Bitch

Hehe! Now off to shool..

*SKIP CAR RIDE*

I pull up to the school and I can already smell it. Cheap perfume, desperation, and tears.

I get out my car and everyone is staring at me. All the guys are looking at me like Im a steak dinner, while the girls look at me with jealousy and disgust. Well this is a great way to start school!

I awkwardly walk into school and to my locker. I take out some of my books and go to homeroom.

A few minutes later everyone walks in including my friends. They all take seats next to me and we start talking and laughing about my note that I left for everyone.

Of course later than everyone else Nate walks in with his group of sluts and man whores.

Nate comes and tries to approach me but Owen stops him.

"Where do you think your going?" Owen asks.

"To talk to Riley.." Nate replies.

"I don't think Riley really wants to speak to you at the moment." Owen says.

"But-" Nate begins but I interrupt him.

"Guys, just let me talk to him. It'll only take a second." I say glaring at Nate.

Nate and I walk out of the room and into the hallway.

"What do you want?" I snap at him.

"Riley, Im sorry. So so sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you like that. I was drunk and not in my right mind."

Calmly I said " I know you were drunk and all but that doesn't erase the fact that you did what you did. You say you didn't mean to but how do I know you are telling me the truth?"

"You know Im telling you the truth because I love you. And I'm here to fix this. Please?" He pleaded.

Okay, I do love him. But he hurt me repeatedly.. I could forgive but I cannot forget. No matter how hard I try.

"Nate I-" I begin.

"Riley please?" he said. You could see the tears in the corners of his eyes.

"I-" I started again but the bell rang signaling that its time to start class.

"I have to go to class. I'll see you later." I said walking to my Math class.

~~~~~~~~~

"So if you substitute pi for 3.14 you-" my teacher said but I couldn't focus. What am I going to do. Should I just forgive him. Because thats what I really want to do. But there is still that little part of me that refuses.

My phone mildly vibrated shaking me out of my thoughts. I look down to see a text that has the ID SuperMan. Aka Edward. {E- Edward R- Riley}

E- U alright, u seem kinda off? :/

R- Yeah, just alot on my mind. I feel like my brain might explode.

E- Wanna talk about it?

R- Yeah.. Just go straight hime after school and go to my room. I'll tell u then.

E- Kay, bye!

R- Its kinda weird that your saying bye when we see eachother at lunch.. Oh well. Bye.

*END OF SCHOOL*

Gotta get home! I put all my books back into my locker instead of the ones I needed for homework and proceeded to my car.

OnceI got to the parking lot, I got into my car and drove off. I was kinda anxious to talk to Edward about this so I began to tap my fingers on the steering wheel to relieve the stress.

I got out the car and walked to the door. I unlocked the front door and ran to my room.

I changed into some sweatpants and a baggy shirt and started my homework.

*Edwards P.O.V.*

I got home and went to Riley's room and knocked on her door. She came and unlocked the door. I looked at her clothes and her half did homework.

I guess she got home a while ago.

She sat on her bed and looked at me.

"So whats on your mind?" I asked her.

She sighed and began to tell me some things. A plan that withered away because her lack of confidence. Her thinking she wasn't good enough and having a panic attack this morning because of it. Then she told me about her conversation with Nate.

"Well, I feel like you should do what your heart tells you to do." I say. Sounds cheesy I know, but its the thing that she should do.

"Well, my heart says I should go back out with him. But I don't want the get hurt again." She says.

"It hurts too much to be hurt by him and I don't want it to happen anymore. I want to trust him but its hard." She says. She begins to cry silently. I hate when she cries. It seems like she cries alot but there comes a point in time where you just break and thats what has been happening to her. She is breaking.

"Please don't cry. I hate seeing you cry. Don't forget you are too beautiful to cry." I say. She begins the cry even harder. And broken sobs escape from her lips.

I pull her into a hug and she hugs back. She puts her head on my shoulder and keeps crying but with only sniffles and tears.

I feel so bad for her. She feels so misplaced when it comes to herself. After everything she's been through it only seems to get worse for her.

Poor girl..