I'm trying not to be reckless.
So here I am.
Typing these meaningless words.
I'm trying so hard to make sense,
I'm trying to let it out,
Let it go.
But what am I letting go of?
I ask this question everyday.
I've hit rock bottom again.
Only this time I'm truly drowning.
I'm so badly trying to reach the surface,
But I'm only sinking further and further.
It's so familiar to me,
But it's tearing me apart.
I've escaped before,
But somehow,
Someone lured me to the water once again.
I felt the happiness, I felt complete.
But then It came back.
And I was suddenly relying on distractions.
But what really takes the pain away?
Will this be me forever?
You see the thing I keep saying is
Try.
But why is it always try, try, try.
When will I succeed?
When will it all go away?
The pain in my head worsens as I sink deeper and deeper.
I'm grabbing onto whatever I can,
But it breaks with me.
I felt happy,
I lost myself for a little,
I thought it was temporary.
But what if it was the happiness that was temporary?
YOU ARE READING
When You Can't Sleep At Night
PoetryOriginal poems. ------------------------------ Who knows what could be in these poems they are purely anything I'm thinking or feeling. Dont read if you don't like or want to read about depressing feelings or suicidal thoughts. Have a nice life :))
