STASI

Our Bittersweet End

This is for my goodbye,
For anymore, I could no longer lie,
This whole scenario is breaking me
I could no longer pretend I am in glee.
Goodbyes, you know I hated these,
But this is what I could do at least.
I know you too are hurting,
We are just vulnerable beings,
You didn't choose me
And a future with me you choose not to foresee
'Cause they say it is forbidden
So better than to keep it hidden
You are letting this thing
Go and fade into nothing
You choose to hear their voices
Than to have more night full of lovely dances
You choose to break me, break us
Put our story back into dust.

I understand, really.
But I could not be more silly
To stay and say,
'Don't worry I'm okay'
For I am not,
it pains me alot.
So I am taking a step away,
With high hopes that someday,
I'll get over this
And feel again that lovely bliss,
Maybe, alone or with a stranger
Just let me pull out this dagger.
So goodbye, my dearest friend,
This is our bittersweet end.
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Ayokong mawala ka sa buhay ko.

Mahal kita.

Alam kong sinabi kong mamahalin kita, mananatili ako sa tabi mo anumang mangyari.

But things were so complicated, kahit klaro yung nararamdaman ko para sa iyo.

Iyong hinihiling mo na bumalik tayo sa dati?

Bilang magkaibigan. FRIENDS.

Sinubukan ko. Alam mo naman diba?
Kase pwede naman tayong bumalik talaga sa dati.

Oo.

Pero hindi ngayon. Kase habang tinitingnan kita, naaalala ko ang mga pinagsaluhan nating yakap at halik. Pipi pa rin kasi akong umaasa na baka pwede pa. Kase alam ko naman na mahal mo ako. Hindi ko mapigilang umasa.

Pero pinaparamdam mo rin naman na imposible na. At nasasaktan ako. Nasasaktan ako nang sobra sobra.

Kaya lalayo ako. Kailangan ko to. Kailangan natin to. Para mas madali tayong makalimot at makabalik sa agos nang lecheng mundong ito.

This is goodbye.
See you when I see you again, my love. Kapag muli tayong nagkita, handa na ako maging KAIBIGAN mo nalang.