Boy Band

19. Life

Jays P.O.V.

I had been avoiding my phone since we got back to the hotel. I didn't tell Jack what happened earlier in the day, but he knew about what happened. I assumed that it was the work of Michael. I just listened to my phone ring and make all sorts of noise until it finally died. I laid in bed, just staring at the ceiling thinking about all that has happened in the past few months. I went over the past months in my head over and over again. Until my mind finally went blank. I just stared at the ceiling with no thoughts occupying my mind. My computer that was sitting open on my desk began to make a noise. I sat up to see that Jack was calling me on Skype. It was ten thirty at night.

I got up from my bed and answered the call. Jacks face appeared on the screen, my camera was off. I looked at him, and nervously played with the strings on my hoodie. He sighed.

"So this is how it's gonna be tonight huh?" He said

"Yeah, I know you're mad." I said, "and you don't want to see my right now. Im pretty fucked up."

"I'm not mad at you baby girl." Jack said running his hands through his hair, "I'm just worried about you, and you know I don't care about how you look."

I turned my camera on, looking straight into it.

"Its been a day Jack, and I don't want to talk about it." I said

He just stared at me, there was a long painful silence.

"I'm sorry that I wasn't there with you." He said quietly.

Sadness spreading across his face.

"You couldn't have stopped it love." I said looking down and tugging on the hoodie strings again, "there was lead up. It's a lot more than anyone knows."

"I'm sorry." He said

"Don't be." I said looking back up at my computer, "I'm fine , everything is fine."

"Yeah. That's what I thought you'd say." He replied

"Cause it is." I said, "everyone makes everything a big deal and it's not."

"I'll just agree with you, though I know everything is not fine." He said, "but I know that if I don't drop it you'll get mad."

I bit the inside of my cheek and changed the subject.

"How was your day?" I asked getting up.

I took my computer with me, I plugged it into the wall and set the computer down. I laid on my hotel bed stairing at Jack on the screen.

"It was pretty good." He said, "The show tonight was amazing. Not that all the shows aren't amazing. Just , its amazing every time. To go up on stage and hear them all sing the lyrics back. It's a feeling I can't even begin to describe."

I just smiled.

"I'm glad you had a good day love." I said curling up in my pink fleece blanket.

"Aww is my baby girl tired?" Jack said

I rolled my eyes.

"Yes." I said, "I am tired, but I don't have my cuddle buddy."

"I'm good, I just cuddle with Corbyn.", Jack said

"Oh okay," I said, "I see how it is. I'll just get myself a new cuddle buddy then."

I grabbed my blankie that Michael and hype got me. I held rapped my arms around it and started at my computer before shutting my eyes.

"Are you gonna fall asleep on Skype." Jack questioned

"Yeah.", I said, "just keep talking. I'll be out in a hot second."

"What do you want me to talk about." He asked

"Sing me a song." I said

"Let me think." He said

I smiled, "Mkay love."

"Got it." He said

He started to sing I'm falling for you by Chester See.

I don't wanna tell you that I long to see your face
I'm scared it might scare you away
And I don't wanna tell you that sometimes I think of you and smile
'Cause time with you is time enough for now

But I don't know how long I can stick around and be
Just another friend time and time again and hold my tongue.
I don't know how long before it breaks me down inside
And all my strength has gone away, and it's too late before I say

I'm falling for you
I'm falling for you

I'm trying hard to be myself but I always seem to fail
I'm afraid I'm not the guy you know so well
Cause every time I'm near you I just seem to lose my head
And spend my time admiring instead.

About this time I felt myself begin to drift off to sleep. His voice sending me to sleep was always one of my favorite things.

(A/n I know this chapter was kinda trash but thats okay. Thank you guys for reading! (:    )