CHAPTER TWO: WAS IT MY FAULT!?
I opened my eyes looking around, i was in my room with Hunter asleep next to me. I looked over to the clock to read; '4.00 A.M' I realized it was nothing but a dream. A dream; My only way of seeing Tommy. I closed my eyes again trying to clear my mind of everything that was happening.
"Kaley wake up" I heard Hunter say from next to me as he shock my shoulder.
"What?" I asked rolling over.
"Phone" He said passing me my Mobile.
"Hello"
"Hey it's Ian, sorry i woke you i was just wondering if you wanted to maybe hang out today, you know to clear your mind and what not?" He sounded so unsure of himself.
"Er-" I started but he cut me off almost straight away.
"You know what don't worry about it, it was a stupid thing to ask-"
"No Ian i do, i was just thinking if i had anything else planned today" I replied cutting him off.
"Oh right, well i'll pick you up in say an hour?"
"Yeah okay, wait where are we going?"
"Somewhere special you'll like it i promise"
"Okay, well i'll see you soon" i said with a small smile.
Why was i smiling i had just lost the guy i have loved since i was a kid. i thought to myself.
"So where are you guys going?" Hunter asked.
"Not sure, he's just taking me somewhere to try clear my mind"
"oh okay, well i guess i better go than jenna will be wondering where i am"
"okay, wait can't you stay just a tiny bit longer"
"i've stayed the night, what if Jenna thinks i'm cheating on her or something?"
"She won't Hunter i promise i'll tell her you were here and don't worry i won't mention you sleeping in my bed with me. Seriously Hunter nothing would happen with us i loved your brother and you love your wife there everything's okay" i expained.
"okay, well what do you need?"
"help me find an outfit?"
"ugh fine, but why can't you call over one of your girl friends? plus it's not like your trying to impress this guy... wait you dont like him right, i mean you're not just going to forget about Tommy are you?"
"What no, Ian and i have met like twice and Tommy is the guy i love even if he's.." i trailed off when i relized what i was about to say. "he's you know"
"yeah i know,but you're not going to just start dating his roommate are you?"
"Hunter i'm not but he would want me to be happy either way"
"kaley i need to tell you something" He said fast and scared for me.
I didn't say anything i just looked at him. It was like the funeral all over again my throat was closing up on me and i hadn't even heard what Hunter had to say, but i had that gut feeling it was going to be bad. Just by the tone of his voice i knew it wasn't going to be something i wanted to hear.. not right now, not ever.
"When Tommy was in the car accident he had told me before he left that he was coming here to propose to you" He looked at me with a hurt face.
I had never felt so many different feeling at the same time in my life. But mostly i felt guilty, as if i was the one who took his life. If it wasn't for me than he would still be at college and he would still be alive. I KILLED HIM.
"I killed him" I whispered to what i thought was just to myself but obvouisly not.
"kaley don't say that. Dont blame yourself. This is why i didn't tell you i knew you would blame yourself. But i knew that you would hate me when you found out that i already knew."
"I could never hate you" I whispered. My voice mute again.
'knock knock'
I looked over at the door not caring what i looked like or who it was. I opened it to see Ian standing there looking perfect. I wrapped myself into his chest feeling his muscles tense but relax when he relized i was crying.
"kaley?" He asked softly.
"It's my fault" I cried.
"What's your fault?"
"Tommy's death"
"How?"
"He was coming here to propose to me" I said still in his arms.
"I know but it's not your fault Kaley, It was the idiot who was texting and driving" he said just above a whisper.
"But he was coming to see me Ian" I said pulling out of the hug to look at him.
"Kaley, No don't you dare blame yourself please" He said cupping my face. I looked into his ocean blue eyes as they stared back into mine. I took a deep breathe and gave him a small nod.
It was now that i could see why and Tommy had been such good friend's he was just like him. I turned to face Hunter as he agreed with what Ian was saying.
"It's not your fault Kaley" Hunter said smoothly.
"I know i just.. i feel like this is one massive stupid dream that i can't wake up from and it is killing me. Having to live with that feeling that i can't just call Tommy and hang out whenever i won't because he's not coming." i Sobbed.
I looked at my feet as tears feel to the ground.
"But i know that you guys are going through the same thing, so i guess i should just stop making this all about me" I said picking up my head feeling angry with myself.
"You're not, it's natural Kaley" Ian said hugging me again.
A/N: WAHHH! IAN'S SO ADORABLE! DON'T FORGET TO COMMENT, FAN AND KEEP READING!:)
