Not in that Way- Destiel/Sabriel

Chapter 2- Castiel

Breathe. Breathe. Just breathe. All I could do was tell myself to breathe. I have spent my entire life running. Running as far away from every Winchester as I could. I didn't want or meet my soulmate and I didn't want to fall in love.

Love is scary. Love is betrayal. Love is pain. All my life the only love I've ever given had been thrown back in my face. My parents abused me and my sister turned 18 and did the same. Nobody really cared about me. Maybe Gabriel, but he turns 18 in 2 months and I doubt he'll stay.

My hands were still shaking slightly when I flipped the light switch. Tomorrow I was going to college. Tomorrow I would move into a new place. With new people. I shuddered at the thought of new people. I was perfectly comfortable with just Gabriel.

I let my eyes drift shut while I imagined what my roommate and possibly soulmate would look like.

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"Cassie?" I wrinkled my nose at the sound of my name. "Get the hell up!" I rolled over and shielded my eyes from the light.

"Do I have to?" I groaned as I slowly lifted my hand from my eyes. I squinted up at Gabriel.

"Yes, actually you do!" He was pissed. I glanced over at the clock it was already 3:30. He saw me look at the clock and shouted. "YES, WE ARE ALREADY LATE SO LETS GET A MOVE ON!!"

I sighed and rolled out of the comfort of the fresh sheets. For the past few weeks we had been living in a this small apartment, just the two of us.

After we escaped the Novak's we moved around for awhile before Anna, my sister, settled us down and found us a place to stay. All three of us were forced to get jobs and provide for ourselves. After Anna left three years before I turned 18 Gabriel and I struggled, staying everywhere and anywhere. We went from motels to park benches and sometimes stayed overnight in stores that had bad security.

Through it all though Gabriel and I stayed in school. Most of the time it was only some crappy online courses that we took for free at whatever library was closest, but sometimes it was sneaking into college lectures when nobody was paying attention.

We hardly had any money but three years after Anna left she found us again. She was married and had a decent job as a secretary working for her soulmate. She ended up successful and instead of taking Gabe and I in she sent us some money from time to time.

Other than what we earned working multiple jobs and from Anna we had little money. It was only enough for food and sometimes a room.

I got a full ride to Stanford. That's how I made it in. Right after Anna left Gabe and I came to California. I don't know how but one day later on I wondered all the way to Stanford. I slipped into a lecture building and sat in the back shadows listening. I took notes on a laptop I borrowed from the library and did assignments. I showed up at those lectures twice a week for almost an entire school year. Unlike everybody else I was good at being invisible.

One day though, I slipped up. The professor called on me, the kid in the shadows. He checked his chart five times over before realizing I wasn't on it. He let me go until the end and held me back after everybody else had left. I broke down when he asked my name. I told him everything, about my brother, and my shitty parents, and everything else.

Then a miracle happened. He helped us. He gave us money, because he had way too much anyway. Then he set Gabe and I up in a tiny apartment and got us both good jobs. Then he taught me.

He taught me everything he knew and gave me lessons. He soon realized how smart I was. He said my math skills were better than most college students and I could write an essay almost better than his.

He continued teaching me all summer then told me that he had pulled thousands of strings and gotten me a full ride scholarship. All I had wanted since I started school was to go to college. Now I finally could.

The only thing was that I didn't want anybody there to figure out who I was. I was the kid that got pushed out of his home and had to leave. So I changed my last name. I took the Professor, Chuck's, last name and slapped it on after Castiel. Now I was no longer Castiel Novak, I was Castiel Collins.

Gabe waved a hand in front of my face.

"Dude, you spaced out," he stated.

I shoved his hand away and got up. I got dressed quickly and we drove down to the campus. It was only a ten minute drive so we got there quickly.

Even though I had woken up late, I still beat my roommate to the dorms.

I didn't want to meet my roommate. His name was Sam. Sam Winchester. Winchester! Of all the people I could have been roomed with it had to be a Winchester. Winchester was the name that appeared on my wrist the day I turned 18 and I had no intention of ruining my poor soulmates life with my messy one.

I was in the bathroom when he arrived. I stumbled out to him with his hand or to Gabe and a wide smile on his face. He was tall and muscular, but definitely not soulmate material if you ask me.

"Uh, hey" I said awkwardly. I tilted my head a little, "Samuel?" Was this really the Winchester?

"Yep that would be me" He shook my hand and looked me up and down before his eyes landed back on Gabriel.

I suddenly noticed a man a little shorter than Sam standing a little further back. He was beautiful. His eyes were the color of the trees on a windy sunny day. They shining bright in the light of the room. As my hand grasped Sam's I felt a slight tickle in my wrist.

Hey-o! So guess who is actually going to try to stick to an update schedule this time. So here you go! I'll post again next Wednesday! Vote and comment!