Not in that Way- Destiel/Sabriel

Chapter 9- Castiel

My mind was still racing. I didn't honestly know what to think. Dean and I had sat in that library for almost ten minutes. His muscular arms wrapped tightly around me. It felt so good even though it was so wrong.

How did my life even get this screwed up? My depression and anxiety were already overtaking my life. Then I thought I found my soulmate but I was wrong. And now I'm dating my actual soulmates brother who still has no idea that I'm not really his soulmate. Not to mention my brother is probably going to leave me all by myself after he turns 18 tomorrow. I was getting a headache just thinking about it.

"Cassie?" My attention switched to a pacing Gabriel, "Are you even listening to me?"

"Ummmmm... not really." He looked at me with glaring eyes and stopped pacing.

"Right, right, because it's not like we are taking about the rest of my life here or anything!" He threw his hands up in he air for emphasis and sighed loudly.

"Okay, drama queen. Go ahead." I focused in on him. He was turning 18 tomorrow after all.

"Thank you," he started pacing back and forth again. "Okay, so the family and friends reveal is at noon and everybody is staying for lunch then we will set up for the party which starts at three. Then at 3:30 when everybody is there I will make the announcement so everybody knows then we party late in to the night."

He looked up at me. "Okay?" I said hesitantly. I don't know why he needed me here when he already has it all figured out.

He made a noise of frustration and threw his hands up into the air again before he stormed out of the room.

"Gabe, come on. I'm sorry." He peeked back in.

"No, I'm sorry. I'm just so stressed about this." He rubbed his head and stepped back into the room. "Now tell me what's up."

"What are you talking ab-" I started.

"Save it, I've known you since forever. I know when something's up with you." He was staring at me now, waiting for me to spill.

"Its just-" I was cut off once again by a knock at the door.

Gabriel looked at me with an apologetic face and went to answer the door. It swung open to reveal my soulmate. No not my soulmate, my soulmates brother.

No. No. No no no no no. He can't be here right now.

My brain scrambled as he waved in my direction.

"Heya Castiel." He said it so casually.

I put my hand up quickly to acknowledge him before letting it drop back to my lap. He walked over to the couch and sat down next to me. He was so close to me. He wrapped him arm around my shoulders and I tensed up before relaxing slightly.

It felt so forced. So uncomfortable. It was so clear to me now how wrong Sam and I really were for each other. I leaned away from Sam slightly.

How was I supposed to tell him. Tell him that I wasn't his soulmate. I might have been a Novak, but not the right one.

He had told me all about his Novak tour that he took trying to find the right one. How could I tell him that he needed to keep looking. It was one thing to find my actual soulmate and never have to see Sam again, but if Dean and I worked out I would be his brother-in-law.