Not in that Way- Destiel/Sabriel

Chapter 10- Castiel

I held his gaze not wanting to let go. His eyes flashed with longing and I'm sure mine reflected the same thing.

Sam led me over towards the kitchen where most of my family had gathered.

We walked up and Gabe clapped me on the back, excitement clear in his face. His eyes wandered off of me and traveled towards Sam.

We talked with my family and caught each other up on everything going on in our lives.

Luci's band was doing great, they had a gig in California coming up and Lucifer got Gabe and I tickets. Him and Michael have been dating for almost two months now and I can tell by how he talks about him that they are totally head over heels for each other. Then he peeked around the room, spotting Michael facing away from him playing with Samandriel. He reached his hand into his coat pocket and pulled out a small red velvet box. We all held in squeals as he opened it to reveal a simple black band with a small red stone next to a blue one. It was beautiful.

Hannah told us all about her latest trip to Los Angeles where they took a tour of famous people's houses and met Jim's long lost best friend Beyoncé. Other than that and I quote, "nothing much has happened".

Raphael talked about how mom and dad were getting ready to kick him out. Which we all saw coming.

Balthazar wasted no time launching into some crazy story about how the cops busted him while he was spray painting a giant dick on some bank. Then he had to jump an eight foot fence or something like that. Then some great stories about him and his correctional facility friends. Then about how they finally let him out just in time for the party.

Balthazar and Gabe might have been twins but Balth had already found his soulmate. It was some chick from one of the facilities. They fell in love when they were fifteen. Both their arms burned each other's names the first time they confessed their love for each other. Later that year she overdosed at some party. So no name will appear on his wrist today. He says he's fine but we know it still hurts him that she's gone.

Later all eyes landed on Sam and I and our still intertwined fingers. I let Sam talk. He told them the happy parts, you know, the parts that people want to hear. I was quiet the whole time. Sam just kept talking about how great everything was, how happy we were. It made me feel like throwing up. I could hardly keep it in.

I was steadying myself on the counter now, my eyes scanned the room finding Dean playing with Michael and the little ones. He looked up, sensing my staring. Without a word he stood up and walked towards the bedroom in the back of the apartment, never breaking eye contact.

"I have to go to the bathroom." I interrupted Sam and took shaky steps all the way to the bed room I had woken up from only a few hours earlier.

Dean was waiting on the bed, watching the door for me. As soon I shut the door he stood up and pulled me up against his firm chest.

"Are you okay?" He looked me in the eyes pulling away slightly.

"How are we going to tell Sam? How... I... I don't know what to do..." I felt tears slipping down my face.

He hugged me tighter and sighed. "I don't know."

Eventually we ended up sitting on the bed. He was still holding me.

"Cas, I know we just met but I can't help but want to be around you all the time." His eyes stayed down not wanting to see my reaction.

I pulled away slightly and hurt crossed his face. I put my left hand up and cupped his cheek. "I want to be around you too Dean."

It was perfect, I could have stayed in that moment forever. But just like every other part of my life, it came crashing down around me.

The door swung open and a worried Sam entered the room. He stopped dead in his tracks when he noticed Dean and I holding each other.

I heard Dean whisper to himself next to me, "Shit."

"Sam," I stood up holding my hands out in defense. "It's not what it looks li-"

"Shut up!" He shouted at us. His face was already streaked with tears. "Just, stop! I came in here to check on you Castiel. I thought something was wrong. I was worried about you. I-I can't believe you and you Dean! You're my brother! My brother. And you're what, screwing my soulmate!" Tears were pouring down his face as anger leaked out of him. "I can't, I can't believe you!"

He stormed out of he room, but I couldn't move. I was frozen. My heart was hammering out of control and I felt my chest tightening. I heard Dean yelling to Sam next to me. He was about to run after him when I collapsed. My legs gave out and I fell into Dean. Now I was shaking so hard he probably thought I was having a seizure.

"Cas?!?" I could hear him, but my vision was starting to fade. Sam's telling had triggered something. I don't even know what, but I wanted it to stop. I couldn't tell if I was even breathing anymore.

I still heard Dean's screams as my eyes fluttered shut and the darkness consumed me.

*gasp*. So second update today. Sorry if you hate it but I'm pretty sure that I know where this is going now. You can send in suggestions but idk if I'll take them. I might update tomorrow but I'm not sure yet soooooo, yeah.