#BedroomConfessions

Spoken Word: I Am The Type

On my first day as a college freshman, I was asked by a colleague "What's your type?", and as someone who has the immaturity of a 17 years old back then, I didn't know what to answer but "You are my type."

She never spoke to me again, but not that it mattered because she shifted courses by the end of the semester anyway. But then again, for the record, I never knew the correct answer to that question. I asked a few of my friends and they told me that there could be two meaning for the word 'type', the first one is the very common which is, the type of person I am looking for on a possible reproductive mate or second, the type of person I am and I thought that it does make sense after all.

Before we go deeper into this, you should know that I've never written anything about the type of person I am because aren't we all dreaming of the type of person we would want to spend the rest of our lives with? Right? I mostly write for the thought of that ideal person for what it's worth and also, because it will always sound a bit more romantic than a patronizing litany of who and how I am.

But my friends told my why not write 'me poem' once and for all and I thought, maybe it's finally time to give in to peer pressure at 23. So without any further ado, here's I am the type.

I am a Virgo, that automatically makes me every bit of critical, over-thinker and perfectionist in all the right places. I am the type who observes longer than I interact. I am the type you can easily mistake to being a snob, well, because most of the time I am but believe me other times it's because I was just analyzing you as a person. I am the type who would know after 30 minutes of talking to a person if I am ever going to talk to them again in the future. I am the type that makes that my connection deciding factor.

I am the type who wouldn't easily warm up to a stranger right away or not at all, unless you are someone I need to be friend with for work, or I see something special in you to pay attention to, you should make sure to leave a good impression to me first. I am the type who will leave you wondering what my next move be, I am indecisive at times but once I've already chosen one thing I'll stick to my choice whatever may happen in the future. Because I am the type who would think and over think and would think it over again before making a decision. But you should know that I am somewhat, sometimes a little impulsive and spontaneous. Especially when I am with someone I could be impulsive and spontaneous with.

And once I fall in love, I am a full blown hopeless romantic. I don't jump from one love to another, for me the whole process of getting to know and flirting is a tedious task I would totally want to do less than the average person.

And if you got my attention, please be really patient and consistent and observant too. For I am the type who would want to know all your stories, no matter how long or short your life story was or your lunch meeting was, I want to know about it. Not because I am nosy but because stories about and of the person I love interest me more than anything else.

I am the type who would pull you on the side of the street to sway us to the tune of the live street music. I am the type who would do anything to make you laugh especially when you're really upset, or if laughter isn't the best medicine, maybe making you feel a little better with your favorite food would do. I would know, because I am the type who would pay attention to anything about you, from the way you always want to dress, to your birthday, to your favorite food, to your life hopes, dreams and aspirations.

I am the clingy and needy type, although often times I am told that I am not. For me I know I am and I believe that to be true, but I learned a way to suppress it as a way not to drive people I like away.

I am the opposite of Netflix and chill and send nudes. Because I would Before Sunset, Midnight and Sunrise the hell out of you and would get down bare and naked with you instead.

I am the type who would love to have short term and long term plans with you. I love planning, because it means we're going somewhere and if we're going somewhere we're growing at the same time. We're moving. I am the type who wants a steady and consistent relationship but wouldn't stay for complacent and stagnant. I am the type who knows that like you I need to grow as a person too, and if by any chance we want the same things then maybe we can grow together.

I am the type who would want to build a family in the future, to teach my kids the importance of being kind, loving and hopeful. Of being brave but not a fool, and for stepping up without being a jerk. I am the type who would want to establish family traditions, during birthdays or Christmas or New Years. I am the type who loves kids so much, I could tear up with just a video of a baby boy being emotional about the news that his mommy's having a baby again.

I am the type who would fight for you hard, I wouldn't let anything slip without a pretty goddamn fight for I know not all good and beautiful things can come my way and if you're one of them then you are here to stay.

I am the type who takes things seriously, sometimes a little too seriously. But what's not great about being serious right? Knowing I also do know about having fun. I am the type who loves deep meaningful talks, late not talks, food talks, and dirty talks but I am never made for small talks, for fooling around, and for always chasing somebody else.

I am the type who's committed to stay for a lifetime, without regard of how long a lifetime could be. I know there's nothing so sure about life but I just have to put my trust upon it. And it's not being naïve to believe something is bound to last a lifetime as much as you can believe somethings are just meant to happen, people are meant to meet and fall in love even on the unlikeliest of times, and people are meant to leave after some a while to start again with somebody else. I'm just the type would always want to make it work for as long as I could.

So, after hearing everything about me, what do you think? Am I your type?