I am here. I finally did decided to create this.
I don't know where to start. I feel really sad but I have nobody to rely on. This is the truth I have fucking no one. I have myself and every night I curl up in my bed and realise that. Of course I have friends in school, but does it matter? None of them cares about me. Nobody asks me how I actually feel? What made me the person I am now. I am here to help everyone but does it matter. I am only good for use. I am here to hear out everyone's problem, give advice and help them trough their hard times. But who does it for me? Maybe I was born to be sad and alone.
In school people bully me. The way I look like. My abilities. I used to be close with a friend group but then they bullied me. Non of them knows that I went to sleep with tears in my eyes and cried myself to sleep. Days passed. Weeks passed and every day repeated. I feel that I need to prove that I am like everyone else. But am I?
This society is just wrong. I am getting bullied because I achieved something? I do my homework and listening in lesson. Is this right? Is it the right thing to do? Or what others do, getting drunk every weekend and don't give a shit about school? Being popular because you got wasted in parties. This is all fucked up. I can't even try now in school. I became a quiet person. I don't talk anymore. I don't answer questions in lesson anymore. It all changed. Even when I know the answer I feel like I am just an useless person.
I slowly give up... But only one thing keeps me alive.
The hope. The hope that I won't be alone anymore.
The hope that I can forgive myself and everything that I have done....
And the hope that others can forgive m own stupidness...
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Only myself and my problems
Genç KurguDear reader! This is not a book, this is me whenever I feel down I need to write it down. I need to tell someone. Unfortunately this is only here. So there will be a lot of sadness and depression. I use this only to express my sadness.
