Unexpected but Beautiful

Chapter 19: Nothing but Sorrow and.. Sorrow

Bella's Pov:

I woke up stretching out my body. I opened my eyes and turned hoping to see Jc. But he wasn't there! The only thing that lies there is a folded note. My heart completely dropped!! This note was a 50-50 chance!! It could either be a cute "I'm making you breakfast" note or a "You broke my heart note" note. I sat up, and grabbed the note a began to read. By the time I was done reading I wasn't sobbing, I wasn't crying, I was loosing my mind!! I didn't know what to think. I pushed my back against my head board, brought my knees up to my chest and placed my head on my knee caps and let all my tears loose. I then decided to check my phone. Immediately I went on Twitter and saw "my" post. They were pictures of Kian and I that morning he dropped me off! I didn't even have my phone out with me then!!!!!! So obviously the pictures weren't mine. I haven't even been on Twitter for like a month. Just then I saw a text that Kian sent me that read

"I love you too, Bella"

But it said that I saw it, this morning was the first time I was seeing it!! Then I thought Jc saw it!!

I had no desire to make an appearance at school!! As much as i dreaded it I couldn't not goI had testing in all of my classes today! I forced myself out of my bed and moped down the stairs, I honestly didn't feel like eating anything anytime soon!! I went to a cabinet by the sink, opened it and it was full of medication. I left the cabinet open, but went to the fridge and grabbed a bottle of water, and went back to the cabinet and grabbed a vital that had been prescribed for my mom for her pain. I dumped three of the pills into my hand. I had never been one to self-harm, but at this time I was considering it. I placed the pills on my tongue and as I was about to wash them down my throat I thought 

"Bella, do you really want to do this do you really want to be like your dad? A drunk, drug addicted dick??"

As that thought crossed my mind I projected the pills out of my mouth into the sink, screamed probably the loudest I could've ever screamed and melted to the floor with my hand roughening up my hair as I started to hysterically cry. I pushed my head against the cabinets behind me. I sat there for a little longer before pushing myself up and dragging my body weight up the stairs. When I got into my room I looked at myself in the mirror and looked at my face. It was so red you could probably mistake my face for a tomato. And my eyes were an ugly purple color that coats my eyelids and my under eyes. I then strained myself to my closet grabbed out sweatpants and a white shirt, put that on and just left my hair the way it was. I then grabbed my backpack and walked out my door, into the cold, rainy surrounding. I walked right past my bus stop and continued walking. After walking for about fifteen more minutes I reach the school. Before entering onto campus I inserted my hands in my pockets and took a deep breath. Once I entered the from door. All of the juniors and seniorswere bubbled around the front entrance and they were all shouting at me 

"JIAN SLUT"

"HOW DOES IT FEEL SUCKING THE DICKS OF TWO BEST FRIENDS"

"YOU'RE SUCH A HOE"

"GO DIE IN A HOLE BITCH"

 They were all throwing shoes and paper at me. The walls were plastered with printed out tweets that were directed towards me, threats, name-calling, and more! They also printed out my fake tweet about Kian and I. I looked down and walked to my locker, opened it and the posters continued into my locker. But the thing that killed my heart the most was that, a pool of paper strips spilled out the bottom go my locker and flooded around my feet. I bent down on my knees and looked at the remaining paper and it was ALL of the pictures I had in my locker of Jc and I, Lexi and I, my parents, prom, homecoming, everything was shredded to pieces!! My eyes started to pool with tears and they all came streaming down my cheeks like a waterfall. 

I then looked up to meet all of their disgusting laughing faces. But Lucas and his friends were front and center, giving me the dirtiest look!! There was someone at Lucas's side and he had her arm around her..... IT WAS LEXI!!!!!!!!! Right then he pulled her violently in for a kiss and she kissed him back!! I then shot up and rocketed myself through the big crowd, it wasn't easy. I then saw a bathroom and stormed into it!  I crashed into a stall, sat on the toilet lid and placed my face into my palms. I then looked up and even the stalls were full of the posters. I stood up and started to tear all of it down screaming, and crying. Then I started to think of Jc and I melted down to the floor just bursting with sorrow!  There was nothing that filled me but sorrow and.. sorrow.