↠ Dial ↞ C.H. {au}

13

*Allison*

Luke is in Australia right now, Sydney specifically. He's visiting some family members and old friends. He's been pretty distant with me. It went down to only a few phone calls and a couple texts. It's not like how it was before, where he would call me every morning and night, staying up talking on the phone and falling asleep on each other. Random times where he'd just come over and we'd just cuddle or make a mess in the kitchen. I miss those times a lot.

Now it's just a call here and there, barely even a text. There's some nights where I think he's just going to show up but he never does. I cry at night sometimes because I feel like he doesn't love me anymore, that he doesn't want us anymore. No one knows what's going on with him, just me and his family. No one knows how I really feel, only me. No one really knows anything. Not even Tara knows or Calum for that fact.

I keep it all to myself and it honestly sucks. I mean, it's not like he told me not to tell anyone, I just feel like I shouldn't.

I got all mad at Tara for keeping what her and Calum did when I've been keeping what's really going on with Luke for a couple months now and she has actually asked how he was. I lied and just told her he was doing better. That's all I said, 'doing better' when he really wasn't.

Now here I am, laying in this hotel room, alone, thinking of Luke and whether or not to check up on him. I tried a few hours ago but it rang till it went to voice mail, I texted him and nothing back. It's that time where that part of me thinks he's cheating on me and I'm not good enough for him. Hell, I don't even think I am good enough for him. I'm not even with him right now. I don't even know how he really is or if he's really in Australia.

Here's the thing with Luke, he's been having some trouble lately and he turned to something that made him feel relaxed, thing is, it's not the best thing to turn to. He turned to drugs, he told me a few months back that he had been taking them to let loose, only here and there. I didn't argue but then it got worse, he started taking other things. It started off with just weed but moved on to cocaine then to heroin. The heroin was only when he could actually get it. Weed was all the time because he always got his hands on it. Cocaine was on and off, he'd prefer the weed over it.

It's not just the drugs but it's the alcohol too. I know I'm supposed to be a good girlfriend and help him through this but he keeps moving around and pushing me away. It's to the point where I've given up on him. He's not my Luke anymore, he's just someone I used to know. The Luke I knew was never like this, never.

I miss my Luke, the one that was always smiling and was awkward all the time. Would do the most stupidest things just to see a smile on my face and would make me feel special every second of everyday. Thinking about it now makes me sad because that Luke is long gone, I guess he always was..

The last thing I remember is hot tears streaming down my face before I fell asleep, alone again.

~

I woke up to the sound of my phone ringing, the song Give Me Love by Ed Sheeran was playing. That was Luke's ringtone. I sat up and grabbed my phone, looking at the caller and seeing a picture of Luke and his caller ID "Penguin Boy". I quickly looked at the time and seen that it was 2:30 a.m. I slid my screen and place my phone to my ear.

*Call*

Me: luke...

Luke: alli

Me: what do you want?

Luke: alli, I need you

Me: what?

Luke: i need-d you alli, b-badly

The sound of Luke's voice was raspy and it sounded like he was crying by the way his words came out. How does he expect me to drop everything and go to him?

Me: i can't luke..

Luke: please alli

Me: where are you?

Luke: outside of your hotel room

Me: what?

I got up from and bed and walked towards the pathway to the door and stared at it. There's no ways Luke is here right now. He's suppose to be in Australia.

Luke: i'm not lying

I walked to the door and opened it as he spoke again, "Open the door Alli." He spoke into the phone. He stopped and looked up at me, tears started to form in my eyes. I didn't move though, I just stood there staring at him. Not knowing whether I could hug him or if I even had the courage to.

I watched as he put his phone down at his side and slowly opened his arms to me, I was a bit hesitant, I just stared. "I'm not going to hurt you Alli." He said softly, "I promise."

I dropped my phone and walked forward, wrapping my arms around his neck and sobbing as his arms wrapped around me and tightened. "I'm here." He said calmly. "And I'm not going anywhere, not anymore." He kissed my head, holding me close to him.

We stood in the hallway, holding each other. He was really here. Luke was in my arms and I was in his. He's here.

A/N

Wow okay this was actually difficult to write because I had no inspiration, along with the fact that I wrote two chapters for Lies today as well.

Anyhow, basically, Luke was involved in drugs and alcohol because of a problem he had. He pushed Allison away and she thought the worse and all of a sudden he shows up saying he won't leave anymore.

It might not make sense but I'll correct it later.

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