Memories Of a Lifetime

Secrets are revealed

Chapter 27

I was restless during the night. My phone was going off from texts, calls, emails, tweets, and IMs the boys weren't going to quit. Out of all of them the only one I really wanted to talk to was Harry. Just to thank him and finally maybe give him a chance. I had been so mean to him before but he never quit maybe we were meant to be like he said a few days ago. I'm such a bitch sometimes. If I had just let him talk to me! Here let me just answer him. I thought looking at my phone that was flashing Hazza and an embarrassing picture of us.

"Hello?"

"Hey are you okay?" He asked sounding so worried

"Yes we are all fine. Now you guys get some sleep" I demanded

"We're trying but we are so worried about our girls" he sighed

"Just don't worry anymore we are all fine. We even have James here" I added

"James? What why?" He asked panicking

"What's wrong?" I asked

"Well... I just don't like him never have" he replied

"Well he's a good guy. I promise" I reasurred

"You never know and can't wait to see you guys in a few. The guys and I are gonna go to bed now seeing that you guys are okay" he sighed

"thanks Harry for everything goodnight"

"goodnight"

And the phones call was over.

once again I found myself staring at the blank wall for what seemed like for hours. Earbuds in and Up All Night was on shuffle. Even if this stuff is going on this is the music that soothes me when I don't know what to do, when I can't even tell my own feelings. I could stay like this forever but the sky was starting to turn to a light morning blue slowly and I started to hear the waves crash on the shoreline. I might as well get up no point of trying to sleep now. The girls and James should be up in a few hours. Might as well start reading. Its what I do when I'm upset about something but can't really pinpoint it. I read for hours and could finish a whole series in 24 hours this is how I deal with my problems by reading about another world far from the pain I'm facing in my own world.

Now I was on wattpad searching for a new book to read. When I thought how about I write one. Tell all directioners about our crazy adventure starting with winning the ticket. But what to name it?? I thought staring at my blank computer screen how about: Memories of A Lifetime perfect title explains everything. And with that I wrote and wrote for hours until I heard a soft knock at my door.

"Hey you awake" I heard Sam at my door

"Ya sure come in" I replied my eyes still glued to the screen

"Are you okay?" She asked looking at me typing faster than a race car.

"Ya I'm fine"

"Well Tori, Dani and I are going to go get breakfast"

"Oh cool have fun" I added quickly

"Well get ready cause, after breakfast we are going to go shop for bikinis and go to the beach just to relax you look so tense." She admitted

"Well see you later" I waved at her shooing her to move along

Realizing what Sam had said what true I uploaded my first 15 chapters and just hoped for the best results. It seemed my eyes could barely keep open but when I tried to rest no sleep came. This just sucks let's just hope our beach day goes well before I have to face the boys again I really I'm not ready.