I have this really bad habit
Whenever things get stable i start reminding myself of everything that has got wrong in my life and look at things and find the bad things in it
From my father's death to the nightmares i get every night to the stress of studying to a lost dream to the bad memories to the bad things that are happening currently to the ignorance i get from everyone in my life even the ones who are close to me to the loneliness i always feel to being not important in anyone's life
Things have been turning to shit recently