Misconceptions

Chapter 4.

I was going through social media when I peeped something. Today was "national sex day" I busted out laughing. What is wrong with these people yesterday was national best friend day, and then there was national girlfriend day.

I googled national sex day and seen a picture that explained it I saved it to my phone and decided to prank Paul. I'm always planking him so this was nothing new.

Me: *picture* what is wrong with these ppl? 😂😂😂😂😂😂

Bestfriend😍👊🏽😘: litttt

Me: I'm going to celebrate it 😭👀

Bestfriend😍👊🏽😘: 🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔

Me: lol have something to say?

Bestfriend😍👊🏽😘: and who exactly you going to celebrate it with?

Me: Theo duhh

Bestfriend😍👊🏽😘: 😒😒😒 I'll beat your ass

I busted out laughing. I know he didn't say that because he still wanted us to fuck, we haven't talked about sex since he came down for spring break so I really think he's over that. I think he said that because it's too early in our relationship for me to be sexing Theo but I think that's what he meant I'm not sure.

Me: lol why?

Bestfriend😍👊🏽😘: Leonce. Don't. Play. With. Me.

This boy just called me by my middle name that's how I know he was serious. I ended up telling him it was a joke and that he can keep calm. I was still laughing though because I found this funny. I decided to talk more into the subject to see if he would say anything back but I was still getting the one worded responses like he wasn't interested anymore. I was really a little bit sad so I was starting give up on this sex conversation with him, he really gave up, and I know it has something to do with the last time he tried during spring break.

Bestfriend😍👊🏾😘: lol I would change your life if we did fuck 👀 ijs buuuuuuut that's behind us

Me: lmao change my life 😭 boy 😯😯😯 but omg did you really say that's behind us?

Bestfriend😍👊🏾😘: lol not exaggerating. And yes because you explained why you didn't want to do it already.

I looked at the message and really thought "he really took what I said seriously." This is why he never brought up sex since, this is why every time I brought it up he failed to entertain it like he usually do. But my question is why he took what I said to the heart, I only said I didn't want to because my feelings most likely might get deeper and that's not a good thing. It won't be a good thing because we don't plan on doing shit about our relationship, I'm not even sure if he still got feelings. I mean I was able to diminish the feelings I had for him so now it's not as strong especially since I'm in a relationship now so it's just not as deep anymore. My feelings for Paul still remains inside but it's not like he did anything to fuck it up, we're still close and so forth so truth be told I can't let the feelings go, so I guess it's better to diminish them.

Me: That's shocking but tbh you don't have to worry about that anymore I'm over it

Bestfriend😍👊🏾😘: really?

Me: Yea that was a while ago when I said that.

I continued to reassure him in hopes that he would drop the subject and be ok with us having sex again. I know I played games for a long time now so he's not going to come back enthusiastically and be like alright let's fuck this and this day. I know when the time is right I'll have to mention it and initiate it myself so he can believe that I'm off the games and really want it. After a little more talking I felt better that I broke the ice with him and now shit is clear the only thing is I'm not focused on sexing Paul soon anyway, I'm with Theo. I don't want to cheat on Theo, and I know I'm off on a bad start because I'm not being completely honest with him and the fact that I'm talking about sex and basically wishing to have sex with another person is wrong but what he doesn't know won't hurt him.