Misconceptions

Chapter 13.

"I thought of a prank to do today" I told Stacey

"On Paul?" Stacey asked.

"Yes"

"What is it"

"Tell him I want to be in a relationship with him"

"Shanice no, he's going to take you seriously" Stacey said surprised.

"Maybe I'm serious though"

"Wait really? So it's not a prank"

"I don't know. I guess I'm feeling brave to do it cause I'm saying it like it's a prank but deep down inside I actually mean it."

"Go for it, just don't turn around and tell him it's a prank"

"Why would I if I honestly mean it"

The vibe between Paul and I has increased over the months and it's crazy how well I get along with him, appreciate him, and how strong my feelings are for him. I swear every guy friend I have a keep them at a certain distance because when I get close to them, that's when I start noticing the annoyingness, how needy they can be, the disagreements, the immaturity, all of that is just annoying to me. With Paul its a whole different story, and I know it's not the sex because our feelings for each other, well let me speak for myself. My feelings for him was always there way before the sex came in the picture and I can honestly say the sex really just brought us a little closer, and it made me feel more comfortable and open with him. I don't know how else to explain it but I really do love this kid and his role in my life, it just keeps getting better.

"Ok Shanice"

I was nervous as hell but why not, I was feeling brave today so I just went ahead and started typing. I went in my notes and looked for that suspicious text I had saved awhile ago for times like this when I wanted to say something out the blue that can change our vibe.

Me: um I need to tell you something before it's too late and I want to be totally honest with you. It might be awkward between us after this but you need to know. I have kept this in for awhile but I think it's time for me to be completely honest with you and just confront you, I hope this doesn't ruin the friendship we already have. I just want you to know and I don't see any other way I could get over this. It just won't seem fair on me if I don't tell you truthfully, no matter how harsh it is.
Me: 👀👀👀👀

I copied and paste it happy that I saved this text, it makes the suspicion high as hell

Bestfriend😍👊🏽😘: What?

Me: I just want you to know the honest truth... I like you, I wanna be with you, and I think we should stop playing and just give it a try.

I pressed send so nervously, I was so scared to see his response but I was highly curious to know what he would say. I sugarcoated it and said I liked him because I feel like if I said love he would've noticed how deep it is and since its really off guard it might truly fuck up the vibe.

Bestfriend😍👊🏽😘: 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀

Me: 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀

Bestfriend😍👊🏽😘: where this came from?

Me: 🤷🏽‍♀️ just been thinking

Bestfriend😍👊🏽😘: 🤔

Me: what?

Bestfriend😍👊🏽😘: I don't know if you're serious or you copied that post.

Ok Shanice this is your time go either call it a prank or actually mean what you said. I kept trying to talk to myself, but I decided not to call it a prank because I actually meant what I said. I toned it down a bit and said I like him instead of I love him but he knows that. I continued it because I didn't want to keep this in any longer I already started so might as well finish it.