Misconceptions

Chapter 14.

I've been stressing about a lot of things lately but I've been holding my own baggage because there's really nobody to talk to about it. Jazz is very annoying, and Paul is always in and out like he literally disappears for a couple days and then comes back for a short convo and he leaves in the middle, no notification or nothing.

I've been highly pissed off about it but it never shows because I totally forget about everything when he text me out the blue cause I honestly just like the comfort of talking to him and I like to know if he's ok and so forth. But sometimes when he does text out the blue I roll my eyes because a little "bestfriend I'm busy" or anything before he disappears would be helpful like I'm so used to him always notifying me before he goes away but now he's just too busy to even say anything. Yes I'm being petty because I'm very salty. I'm so used to Paul being here all the time and answering calls or at least calling back, and texting back all the time. I'm so used to him just being there anytime I need him, and even if he's not able to he always comes back when he has time. I'm not complaining because I want to talk to him 24/7 or anything like that it's just frustrating how he disappears for a couple days after I probably already double or tripled texted him and he still hasn't replied. Every time I think of venting to him he's m.i.a. And I don't have time for that. Now you can't even depend on him answering his phone or even calling back and he always used to do that which is crazy.

Paul texted me out the blue, and he kind of sense something was wrong with me but I wasn't in the mood to tell him all my frustrations because he's only going to disappear again, not even bothering or entertaining a conversation with him.

Bestfriend😍👊🏽😘: well if you need me, you know I'm here.

I rolled my eyes and decided to be real and not sugarcoat anything as I text him back.

Me: sure?

I instantly felt bad for even questioning him because I didn't want to start an argument especially since he's overly sensitive and this might really hit a soft spot. I don't have time to argue so I decided to text him again before he replied.

Me: sorry wrong text, but I know thanks hun.

I tried to make it seem like I sent the wrong text to the wrong person and thanked him for saying he's here if I need him.

Bestfriend😍👊🏽😘: 😕 was that really a wrong text.

He's asking for it and I am mad as hell so let me just be honest.

Me: truthfully it was shade but I don't want to start anything so I'll just address it another day

Bestfriend😍👊🏽😘: if you're saying that because I stopped replying it's because I left my phone in my homeboy's car charging and he had left for work... I'm just now replying cause I just got it back. I wouldn't leave just like that

Is he serious? He leaves and disappears like that almost every time we talk now like it makes no sense. It's whatever though, I'm not even going to argue

Me: ok

Bestfriend😍👊🏽😘: 😔😔😔

Me: 👍🏾 you good.

Bestfriend😍👊🏽😘: I just want to be there

I guess he officially notices how upset I am about this and the fact that I didn't argue proved that I was really fed up.

Me: I get that but it's times that I wanted to talk about it but lately you been in and out mostly out. You'll disappear and I'll probably have to double text you days later for you to respond... that's why I never said anything.