Awakening -CaptainSparklez

Chapter 12: Twisted Mind

Lyra's P.O.V

Waiting...Waiting...

"Why?"

There we go.

The one question that the answer to was so simple that a two year old would know it. At least, they would if they had my twisted mind.

I took a deep breath. "You," I started. "Well, that and the fact that after I heard you died, I started becoming depressed and went a bit crazy. Voices told me, and still do tell me sometimes, that life would be better if I actually died. That I should go commit suicide. I agreed."

Jordan looked me in the eye. "You're a smart girl," he said. "Of all people, why do you think it's right to kill yourself? You don't need everyone to care. You just need one person."

"Jordan, don't you understand? I thought that my one person killed himself! I was left with no one. I disappeared from the public eye for two months. Two months! Do you think it was easy to stare at a knife all day and never know whether or not to use it! It just made me want to use it more, but the spark of hope in my body was the only thing that made me stop. That was that feeling that you were still there for me. You are. And I don't want to lose you," I said, a tear falling down on my cheek. "Jordan, I love you. More than anything. But you can't change me. I became...this. This disgusting, goth creature with blood streaked hair and a twisted mind."

Jordan moved closer to me. I backed up. Disappointment flicked in his eyes and I felt sympathy, but then I pushed it away. I couldn't feel anything anymore.

"I went through depression too," Jordan admitted. "I felt horrible about how I caused you to die, and I refused any contact. The only contact I wanted was yours."

I sighed, for like the fourth time. "Jordan," I said as tears streamed down my face. "Don't you get it? I'm not human! I'm just a stupid clone. Go find someone normal to love, not me."

Jordan grabbed my hand before I could walk away. I tried getting out of his grip, but he held tightly. "Lyra, you aren't normal," he started saying. I narrowed my eyes, but he continued. "You're unique. I don't like normal. I like a girl with would kill herself to be with me. One that would try to save me by getting hurt. I like you, and only you."

It took all my energy to shake my head. "I'm sorry," I said sadly before running away.

As I ran, I started to think. Jordan's voice calling my name behind me was drowned out as the tiny area of my mind started speaking.

What if all I ever wanted was standing in front of me the whole time?

To Be Continued

Credit to CatWritesBooks for the last sentence, she let me use this idea <3 And I'm sorry this is such a short chapter, i was trying my best...Also, yes, this was Lyra's point of view the whole chapter because I decided that Jordan's point of view had been coming in a lot lately and not as much Lyra's. So, I came up with this. I shall try to write a better chapter soon, but for now, my space unicorns...

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