Words between DREAM & REALITY

Chaos

Chaos kill me deep inside,
But  I struggle to breathe,
Cause deep inside you're still trapped in my heart; your home
Obscure, insecured, anxious and all alone. 
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I felt the heat of chaos burning inside my mind,
Ashes are all im left with, Smokey, black and blind.
You took a step backward, and that's when I know,
You've kicked me outta your life, down and below.
The feeling of being rejected is now eating me up,
Or have I made mistakes and killed my own luck?
I'm at that moment of life, where nothing seems right,
Still I'm holding up with things, cause I've made promise that  I'll be alive.
Dead, yet I'm breathing,
My mind keeps  repeating,
Those memories which we made,
Scrolling chats which now you hate. 
The brightness of darkness is too loud,
I'm trembling on my own in this strange silence, acting not less than a crowd.
Wishing this pain could end again,
Like the rain heals the earth's scars and pain.
Though I know I'll suffer this my whole life,
But you're as soothing as poetry, so I'll be writing you all my life,
In my dairy, which's always with me in my sleepless nights...

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©To ANNANYA SHARMA.