Only You

Chapter 3: New Beginning

It's been three weeks since we talked about the proposal. Here I am cooking in his kitchen preparing him breakfast. Part of me was happy when I accepted his proposal. I had hoped that living with Adam under the same roof will give our marriage a chance. But things are different than what I expected them to be.

Inilagay ko sa plato ang mga pagkaing niluto ko. Naghanda rin ako ng mainit na kape para sa kanya. Napangiti ako sa mga pagkaing nasa harapan ko. Nagpasalamat ako sa aming kasambahay na si Nanay Tasing at tinuruan niya akong magluto at mga gawaing bahay habang nagdadalaga ako. Sana magustuhan ni Adam ang mga pagkaing niluto ko.

I was about to call him in his room to tell him breakfast is ready. I almost bumped myself to him as he walked his way out to the living room. I smiled at him and said the food is ready.

He stared at me and in a cold voice he said...
"I'm going to work. Sa office na lang ako magbrebreakfast." And with that he walked past me and left the house.

I was left dumbfounded. This is just one of the many mornings that I woke up so early to prepare him breakfast that he never tried to eat.

Nag-umpisang mamasa ang mga mata ko. Kinagat ko ang labi ko upang mapigil ko ang pagtulo ng mga luha ko. I know I hurt him and this is his way of hurting me back. And God knows I am hurting too.

Adam has been so cold to me. He barely talked to me unless it's necessary. It's funny we're living under the same roof but in a separate bedrooms. I thought we will start our new beginning together. But I thought wrong.

Each night I patiently waited for him to come home from work. I always found myself sleeping on the couch in the morning. Wondering if he had come home last night from work. There were times whenever he'd come home early I'd prepare him dinner but he never bothered to eat. He will lock himself in his room and won't even bother to ask me how did my day go.

If there's one thing that Adam had kept, his promise! The merger of our companies was a success. My parents were very happy that Adam and I are back together again. They were very thankful that their business is back and it's in good shape too.

I didn't tell my parents what's really going on between Adam and me. I don't want them to worry about me. I never told them too that I have filed an annulment of our marriage five years ago. Adam had never signed those papers my lawyer had sent him. I wonder if he is still hoping that our marriage would still work. I shook my head ignoring that idea. If he still has hopes for this marriage to work, now that I am back he should have shown me signs. But all I got from him was his cold treatment.

Bumalik ako sa kusina at sinimulang kainin ang mga pagkaing inihanda ko. Sa bawat pagsubo ko ay hindi ko namamalayang tumutulo na ang mga luha ko. This is all my fault. If I haven't left. If I haven't made that decision Adam and I must be very happy right now. But what's done is done. All I have to do now is to create good memories with him.

My day past doing my wifely duties. I cleaned the house. I did the laundry. I cooked him meal which he never ate and wait for him on the couch until he comes home.

Sometimes I get bored. Staying alone in the house all by myself is driving me crazy.
I couldn't believe myself that I could survive this set up. I always love to go out and party with my friends. Or invite my best friend Nadia to go shopping until we drop. I miss Nadia. She maybe be loud but she makes me happy.

I miss Renz too. I have lost contact with him since I got back with Adam. I wonder how is he now. Adam hates Renz very much. It pains me seeing these two people I love loathe each other. For now, I am very sure that Renz is the person Adam doesn't want to talk about. What happened five years ago had made us all broken. Maybe one day we'll all heal and forgive one another.Maybe one day things will fall to it's rightful place. Just maybe.

Habang nanonood ako ng tv sa sala at may nabuong desisyon sa isip ko. Iniisip ko pa lang ay excited na ako. Hinintay ko ang pagdating ng aking asawa. Madalas alas siyete ng gabi ay nasa bahay na siya. Kung malalate man siya ng uwi ay matiyaga ko siyang hinihintay sa sala hanggang sa makatulugan ko na ang paghihintay.

Tumingin ako sa orasan at nakita kong mag-aalas diyes na ng gabi ngunit wala pa siya. Chinecked ko rin ang cellphone ko baka sakaling nagtext siya o tumawag siya para ipaalam na gagabihin siya ng uwi. Ngunit nabigo ako.

I started to get worried. I know Adam is a responsible man. He maybe be cold to me but I do hope that he doesn't want me to get worried about him. Maybe the old Adam won't do that. But he'd changed. I bit my lip knowing that my sweet Adam was gone. I shook my head. This overthinking isn't helping at all. Hours past and it's midnight and Adam isn't home yet.
I tried to fight my eyes from falling asleep because I wanted to wait for my husband to come home. But then, I dozed off on the couch.

Adam came home at 2 am and saw Alexandra sleeping on the couch again. His beautiful wife sleeping peacefully while waiting for him. He has been avoiding his wife this past weeks.

He has been so cold to her. He ignored the breakfast she had prepared for him. And at night he always come home late and watch his wife sleeping beautifully on the couch. He'd watched Alexandra for hours while she's asleep. Sometimes he'll touch her face and tell her how he missed her so much. But he's a coward. He doesn't want to tell her wife how he had missed her so much. He couldn't forgive her yet for what she has done five years ago.

The moment Alexandra showed up in his office he had plans of getting even with her. He had plans of breaking her as she had broken him. But each day he spent with his wife brings back the feeling he had been trying to conceal for the longest time.

Nabigla siya ng biglang magmulat ng mata ang kanyang napakagandang asawa. Parang napapasong mabilis niyang tinanggal ang kaniyang kamay sa mukha nito habang nakatitig pa rin siya sa kanyang magandang mukha.

Nagising ako ng maramdaman kong may mga matang nakatitig sa akin at mainit na kamay na masuyong humahaplos sa makinis kong mukha. Nabigla ako ng makitang gahibla na lamang ang pagitan ng aming mga mukha. Isang maling galaw ng isa man sa amin ay paniguradong magdidikit na ang aming mga labi.

Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko. Dinig na dinig ko ang malakas na tambol ng puso ko.
Amoy na amoy ko ang mabango ngunit bahagyang amoy alak na hininga ng asawa ko. Napapikit ako ng maramdaman kong sinasakop na ng mga labi niya ang nanginginig na mga labi ko.

Sa gulat ko ay hindi ko agad tinugon ang mga halik ni Adam. Ngunit hindi rin nagtagal ay nagparaya ako. Bahagya kong ibinuka ang bibig ko upang malayang mahalikan ako ng asawa ko. Lumalim ang halik nito. Exploring each corner of my mouth making me moan. Halos habulin ko ang aking hininga ng pakawalan nito ang mga bibig ko.

"Adam..." sambit ko.

Muling sinakop nito ang bibig ko habang malayang humahaplos ang kamay niya sa mga dibdib ko. Nakakalasing ang bawat halik niya. Naramdaman ko ang mga mainit niyang labi sa aking pisngi, sa aking punong tenga pababa sa aking leeg. Napapikit ako habang napapaungol sa sobrang sarap ng aking nadarama. Napasabunot ang mga kamay ko sa buhok niya nang maramdaman kung sinasakop ng maiinit niyang mga labi ang dibdib ko. Habang ang isa niyang kamay ay malayang humahagod sa isa pang dibdib ko. Napaungol ako habang sinasambit ang pangalan niya. Gumapang ang isang kamay nito pababa sa aking mga hita. Napasinghap ako ng maramdaman ko ang mainit na palad niya sa maselang bahagi ng katawan ko.

"Already wet babe." Sabi niya At dahan dahan niyang tinanggal ang Kamay niya sa kaselanan ko at mabilis na tumayo.

Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig ng bigla siyang tumayo habang nakatitig sa halos hubad ko ng katawan. Nag-init ang aking mukha sa sobrang kahihiyan.

"Next time don't wait for me and please sleep in your bed." He said coldly. He stood up and walked his way to his room leaving me speechless.

What just happened Alexandra.