1919 - Thomas Shelby x Reader

Chapter 50 ~ Quick fuse

Your P.o.v.

I stood in the dimly lit doorway looking into the room spying on Thomas as he paced in his room. Agitation plagued him and it was evident through the way his fingers twitched and he shook his head lost in his frustrating thoughts. I felt like I was fighting a battle that should never have started. I have my battle scars and now im carrying precious cargo that needs to make it through all the chaos. "Are you really going to leave again?" he spoke through gritted teeth "If it means I can live how I want and see the people I want then yes" I took a step into the room.

Thomas faced the window placing his hands on his hips and shook his head and laughed. Not from humour but from knowing there was nothing he could do to stop me from doing so. "Poll told me to come and see you before I left" he turned around and pulled out a revolver from his coat pocket and pointed it towards me. I didn't flinch although I felt a sense of dread make my stomach sink with fear. "Thomas, im going now" I spoke calmly trying to keep myself together "I come back in two days" I carefully exited the room.

I walked into my rom and tried to catch my breath, I was hyperventilating. Would he have actually shot me? Would he really have killed both me and the baby just because I didn't want to stay here? I couldn't wait to find out. I began packing my suitcase with the things I had brought from my apartment here and stood in the shadows of the room with my head down unable to comprehend what could possibly happen next. However I knew exactly what was going to happen next...

No one would be ready for it and I had forgotten about the horrible events that would soon take place in this time and era. I had full knowledge of what would happen and yet somehow all this managed to escape my mind due to the influence of stress and other things I had been dealing with since I came here.  There would be another war soon, millions would die and I would be here with Polly, Ada and the children taking care of business whilst the boys put themselves in danger. Why I didn't think of this until now is beyond me but i wasn't just going to sit here and do nothing.

I walked out of my room suitcase in hand and took a glimpse one more time at Thomas before leaving. I would tell him when I got back. Now would be the worst possible time for him to find out what history had in store for him and the boys. I walked down and out to the front of the building Thomas watching as I exited the house and began walking down to the open gates allowing me to go freely to my apartment where I could do as I please.

Every crunch, crack, snap under my feet made the butterflies in my stomach swell larger and larger. The newly formed tears began to run down my cheeks but I wouldn't turn around. I didn't really want to leave. I loved being around Thomas and being with him but lately he's been so judgmental and protective over me and the business that I need to get away. I couldn't handle the stress and the constant bickering that came along with it. Isolation seemed to be becoming my go to for relief when it came to the Shelby family.

I approached my street but quickly realised my feet had stopped moving. I stood out in the cold musky street staring at my tiny home. Racking my brain for the reason I stopped myself I held a hand to my head and began walking back the way I came turning left at the end of the street. I was guilty. And I was about to become even more guilty for what I was doing. I walked up the small steps to the little house and knocked softly hoping the door would open.

Luckily the door opened with a small creak and weary eyes glanced down at me. "What are you doing here?" he spoke "Thats my line" I half smiled "Yeah and this is my house... Thomas is  going to kill the both of us if he finds you here" Sam spoke blocking the entry so I was left standing out on the front steps. "Well he already tried so I think we're safe" I gently pushed past and walked into what I assumed was the living room. I took a seat on one of the coaches and patted the spoke beside me. "What do you mean he already tried?" Sam looked at me concerned as he closed the door behind him.

"He threatened me with a revolver but he couldn't pull the trigger" Sam accepted my offer took the seat beside me. "Maybe my drunk words were right" he spoke openly causing me to sigh "Yet I still love him". "If you want you can stay here... you know if you need the protection" "I need a friend more than protection. Thats why I left, because he banished the one friend I have" I nudged his shoulder making him smile "Some friend I am" he chuckled.

Within an instant the tension in the room lifted and Sam became his goofy yet charming self again "Would you like to stay for dinner?". His grin brightened the room and made my heart feel fuzzy for a moment "What are you having?" I laughed. "I actually haven't thought that far ahead yet" he laughed scratching the back of his head "You might have to choose" he added making me laugh with him. "Well Im in the mood for pasta, is that okay with you?" he smiled and stood from his seat "Pasta it is then!" I stood beside him and followed him into the kitchen where we spent the rest of the night laughing getting a little drunk and just having a good time.

Authors Note: 

Hey everyone! hope your enjoying the story so far, I cant believe we are already 50 chapters in!? Anyway I just wanted to share with you guys that I found a heap of gifs in store thats are going to make the story soooooo much more interesting! 

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