Smother (Kellic)

Troublesome plans

It took two excruciating days for me to get a text from Kellin. It was simple, but it made me feel many things.
One of them being an extremely nervous feeling I couldn't shake. Mostly because I'm going behind Jaime's back, and I feel like something really bad might happen if he finds out. Kellin doesn't understand the risk I'm taking just to talk to him.
The other feeling is excited, and thats because I really enjoyed spending time with him. I enjoyed every conversation we had, and every moment I've spent in his prescence.

"Hey, It's Kellin. Is this Vic?" was the message I recieved.

"It is. I'm glad you texted me, how are you?" was the message I spent ten minutes debating over, but I finally sent it.

Please don't ask about the bruise.

I waited patiently for his response, and it came rather quickly. "I'm good, thank you, how have you been?"

How have I been?
In all honesty, I've been okay.
I'm on edge around Jaime, and I'm afraid of him and what I'll do next to ruin things.
I've been thinking too much about Kellins poem, and the unhealthy relationship thing.

"I'm good, been reading your book"

is what I replied with, but I hoped it didn't sound weird. Is it too short? Will he think i'm a slow reader? I just want to read a few poems a day so I don't finish it too quickly.

I put my phone down for a minute and sat back, staring at my computer screen, trying to take my mind off of sounding like an idiot. Even when I tried to think about my book characters, and what was going to happen next, Kellin still drifted to my mind.
The way he has so many times at random.

I really do need to stop. I don't understand why he is so fascinating to me.

I picked my phone up as soon as I saw it light up, of course.
"What do you think??"

That was an easy one to answer.
"You're wonderful! I love it, really" I complimented, being even less enthusiastic than I could be.

"Thanks, I'm flattered" he replied.
"Want my autograph? ;)" he added a moment later.

I chuckled to myself as I typed out my reply "What??? An autograph from THE Kellin Quinn??" I replied sacrastically, but also seriously.

He deserves that kind of attention.

"Only if I can get an autograph from THE Vic Fuentes!" he replied, making me chuckle to myself again. I put my phone down for a second and sat back in my chair.

I've missed him, and I know that its wrong.

"Do you want to meet up sometime?" He added after a minute or two. I felt my cheeks go red and I tried to ignore that, Should I?
I mean, why would I text him if I never wanted to see him again?

"Sure. When?" is all I could think of to say that wasn't overboard.

"Anytime.. but I'm off on Wednesday if you want to hang out then. What do you want to do?" he replied. I felt an explosion of butterflies, mostly anxious.

Jaime would kill me if he found out I went behind his back.
God, i'm a bad boyfriend.

"I don't care, we can go see a movie or something?" I suggested.

Wednesday is four days away, it feels far away and too close at the same time. Would Jaime mistake that as me going on a date with someone?
I shouldn't have suggested the movies.

"Movie sounds great :) If you want to swing by my apartment before the movie, i'd love to get your professional advice on something i've been working on.." I bit my lip as I finished reading his message. That's another thing Jaime would totally kill me for, but If he needs my advice, then he needs my advice right? There's nothing wrong with helping someone, even if I think they're stunning. I'm not going to do anything with Kellin, even if he did feel that way for me, even if I felt that way about him.

"Sure. What's your address?" I replied, still feeling guilty.

I'll never forgive myself, and then I'll feel guilty for the rest of my life. If Jaime finds out later on he'll be sure that i'm cheating on him.

I have never and would never do that to him.

"Oakland Apartments, building K, number 67, its the first door on the left when you go up the stairs" he replied pretty quickly.

"Okay, I'll see you then" I replied, clicking my phone off and turning it over so I could concentrate on getting the current chapter finished by the end of today.

***

"Hey" I said defensively as Jaime pushed Barbara off the couch and took the spot she was in.

Jaime looked at me with a raised eyebrow and I only sighed, not wanting to spike an argument, I patted my lap and Barbara was quick to jump in it. I silently apologized to her.

He knows that she's getting old, and there were other spots on the couch for him.

"How was your day?" I asked, even as he rolled his eyes at Barbara.

"It was okay, long as usual" he replied, his eyes landing on the TV screen as the man on the news spoke of something terrible as usual. The world is messed up.

"How's your book coming along?" he asked, glancing in my direction.

I felt myself blush, as its been awhile since he's asked about my work.

"Good.. its going good, I'm working on trying to incorporate the impact of educators in this one. I'm including them on more of a realistic and personal level, and the way they can impact a child or teens life. You know? Of course that isn't all i'm writing in the story, but one of the protagonists teachers is going to open his eyes and-"
I cut myself off for two reasons: I'm talking way too much about this, and I might be boring Jaime to the point of sleep.
"Sorry" I apologized as I saw his eyes never move away from the screen.

"Its fine" he replied dully.