Dear Crush,

8. Missing you

It's been a week that Ashley doesn't send any letter to Scott. But Scott still send his. Ashley also take the letter from Scott's locker, the secret admire letter everyday so it means that she was not really mad at Scott and still hoping for Scott to like her back. Also Karen is back from her vacation so Ashley will take a chair and share the tables with them.

But today, today Ashley will start again her daily schedule. To send a letter to Scott everyday. But now not too open. She'll send 'em in private and start her old attitude back which is to be a nerdy hot at school. She wanted to be stylish but at the same time be a nerd. She's quite weird actually but that's her goals. She really want to feel what it feels to be a quite person. Not totally quite but quite and only talk if she had a reason. She wear an ombré hoodie and a pair of ripped jeans. She put up her hood to cover her face so that no one notice it's her. She then quickly slide the letter in a hole at Scott's locker that every lockers have. Then she just go straight to the class and start her mission. Scott was watching her.
He can't sit still. All he want to do was a confession. A confession to Ashley after school. Today. He can't control his feelings towards Ashley because it's been a week that they doesn't talk to each other. It feels like both of them are strangers.

After school Scott go straight to his locker to keep his textbook there. And then he found out that there's a letter for him. He smile. His tear drops of happiness. He open the letter and read it.

'Dear Crush,
I miss you. It's been a long time since I've never sent you any letter. I love you so much. I can't sulk for too long. My feelings towards you was not fading. I don't know why. I just can't move on. And thanks for giving me a letter everyday. Even though you don't know who am I, you still care about me. I can't believe that you ask me if I'm okay and you missed my letter. I missed you too. All I can do is here watching you and dream that I can have you. It's childish and immature but yea. I'm not as pretty as Veronica. I'm sorry for making you wait.'
Scott fold the letter and put it in his pocket. He changes his mind. He don't want to confess to Ashley yet because she still missed him. He'll wait until the line was cleared and Veronica is gone. He'll lost his pride if he confess now. So he just watch Ashley from afar.

'Dear Crush,
I missed the old us. Don't you want to know me better? Please reply this letter by putting the letter at Scott's locker because Scott is my best friend and he'll give your letter to me right away thanks.'

'Dear Secret admire,
Thank god that you finally sent me a letter. Just for you to know that I love you better than I love Veronica. And thanks for missing me. You don't have any idea of how many times I thought about you before bed. And please don't talk about Ashley again. Let's just talk about us. Me and you. And if you're Ashley's friend please tell her to wait for me at my car because I can still send her back. We're neighbors.'
He wrote like that because he don't want to be too obvious that he know his secret admire was Ashley. He missed Ashley sitting beside him, being in the passenger side and talking with him about school and Veronica. He thinks that Ashley was very cute and friendly.

...
Ashley text Karen and Carol on a group chat. "Guys let's hangout. I'm bored." They reply right away and said that they're done.
"Mommy I'm going out for awhile."
Ashley said and put on her shoes.
"Don't be back too late!" Mrs. Taylor yell.
She go out and sit on a bench in front of her house waiting for them to pick her up. And she saw Veronica's car passed by. "Omg it's Veronica." She said and put on her sunglasses. She saw Scott gets into Veronica's car and they drove away. "Urgh I hope I'm her." She said kicking a little stones at her leg.

*pinpin (the horn sound)
Ashley quickly gets into the car and they go to the cafeteria near Ashley's house and there they saw Scott and Veronica was dating. "I'm sorry." Karen said. "Nah I don't like him anymore. I had a secret admire now hahaha." She bring her little box in her handbag and show them the letters that her secret admire gave her and also the replies that Scott gave her. "Aww so cute!!" Carol said holding one if the letters. And then Karen whispers something to Carol. "Hey don't you think that the handwriting was the same?" Karen whispered and Carol double checked the letter. "What the---..." and Carol smile widely.
"What? You guys are making me goosebumps. Tell me what are both of you smiling, giggling and talking about." She said and take a sip of her iced americano. "I think both of them are the same person." Carol said to Ashley.
"Please tell the story from the first. Who's the same? I don't get it." Ashley ask with goosebumps. Her heart beats fast. "The letters. Both of them. I mean the letter from Scott and your secret admire. The handwriting was the same look." Karen said and take one from the secret admire's letter and one from Scott's. Ashley then making an annoyed face. "Seriously? Huh, I don't think so. Maybe it's just a coincidence. Lol." She said and stuffed her mouth with a spoon if ice cream.

"Look who's here." Ashley feels like someone was holding he shoulder behind her. It's Veronica. "Oo what are you guys doin' ? Studying like a nerd?." She ask. "Get lost." Karen said. "Look what we have here." She then take a letter from Scott. The one that written dear secret admire one. By Scott.
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"Dear secret admire, I miss you? Hahaha" Veronica laughs. "Give me back." Ashley pull the letter off until she ripped it. "Oops sorry." Veronica laugh. "Let's go baby." Veronica grab Scott's arm and leave the cafeteria. "Urgh what am I gonna do. Now that Scott has known who's his secret admire." Ashley pulls her hair. "Hey don't hurt yourself I think he already knows." Carol stop Ashley.

As soon as she's home. She peeks out from her window and saw Scott was sitting at his studying desk. "Maybe he's doing his homework." She make a thought. She then write down.

'Dear secret admire,
Yes, I want to know you better. We can hangout sometimes.'

'Dear crush,
I think you've know who am I now. Haha it's funny right. That it was me all of this time.'

She rolls it and put in her backpack.