Out Of My Mind

Freesia

was it true?
when i was laying on my deathbed,
you never visited me once?
so, you say that you love me dearly,
but not enough to say goodbye.
just in case you never see me again.
the sad thing is, i'm alive.
so very much alive.
and i'm doing better.
but tell me, is she treating you right?
are those cigarettes filling you up?
i really hope so, because i still care.
even If you didn't care about me.
to be completely honest it's quite bothersome.
that i still love you till death do us part.
i can see the black birds knocking at your window.
you know the game but, i'm still pushing forward.
are you?