Out Of My Mind

Rhododendron

to my father who heart is broken.
to my father who worked daily,
to help raise his five kids.
to my father who lost two families,
and who is still walking by himself.
to my father who lays on the floor,
and has to leave far from his kids.
to my father who begs for his kids forgiveness.
to my father who made me feel depressed,loved,sad,excited.
to my father who wanted to teach his kids a bit more about life.
this is your daughter writing to you,
you hurt me very much, my heart has darken corners, that may never see light again.
i still want you to know that i love you, i'm sorry for acting spoiled but i can't help that.
just know no matter where you may be we are still a family.
our hearts will always beat because of you,
i pray to god that you will be safe.
hey daddy, even though i'm turning seventeen,
i will always be your princess.
to my father who has to go. be safe and i love you.
from your daughter who will miss you so.