tiny broken pieces and a faint memory of you

best friend-four

"I'll always be there. we're best friends."

but honey, where were you when I needed you?
when I was clearly sweating,
and I was using my own hands for comfort

where were you when I was losing my head?
where were you when I was lying alone,
crying in my bed?

you were gone and not there
but forget it, I forgot you
and I'll pretend,
that even from the start,
you're not even here