Troye's POV
Seeing Tyler look at my cuts was hard...My entire skin was a red, bloody mess. I kept looking away at the floor but all I could see was Tyler's upset gaze as his eyes travelled over me.
"How am I gonna explain where I have been whilst cleaning you up eh?" Tyler tried to joke. He knew I would rather have slit my throat but didn't dare point that out...
"Look... It was a mistake to show you that video but I HAD to show someone other than myself.... Troye we have been together for like 3 months now but I dunno how long it will take for you to realise your not alone..." He mumbles, applying gauze all over my body. I already knew that but I felt like I was a burden on him CONSTANTLY
"Do you know what day it is tomorrow?" Tilly finally asks
"Our 4 month anniversary!" I squeal, happy I get to forget my worries for 1 night... We were having a party and the Brits were coming!!
Tyler's POV
I knew what I had to do but I just wished it wouldn't be so soon... As soon as Troye was asleep I rang up Alfie and Zoe
"Hey Alfie can I ask you for a favour?" I asked down thee phone
"Sure what is it?"
"Well its a long story..." I tell both Alfie and Zoe (he put it on speaker in their hotel room) about how Troye threatened to slit his throat and his self harming etc. I hear Zoe gasping in the background but I oush on.
"Man you have been through a shit load of stuff! What do you need?" Alfie asks, a sudden determination in his voice.
"I wanna propose to Troye... that way he knows I really care for him and I wanted to do it anyway..." I hear gasps and excited squeals from Zoe and I'm sure one from Alfie.
"SUre! Tomorrow, we will set up a party in the big YouTuber house and then you will walk in, get surprised etc. Troye will sing a song dedicated to you and then you get up to hug him and say thank you when you propose... Got it?" Wow. Alfie had been planning this eh?
"One problem! No ring..." I mumble, my heart sinking. All of a sudden I get an email of a fabulous wedding ring. The caption says:
"I bought 2 on accident! You can have this one for tomorrow if ya like -A"
We hang up and I go to sleep, a happy feeling inside. When I wake up Troye seems still kinda spaced out but a bit happier.
"How much do you love me?" I ask Troye in a gruff, sleepy voice
"Honestly? I would marry you if I could!" Troye declares. My heart rate quickens at the thought... We sped the day at Starbucks and the park before it was time to head to the party.
Alfie's POV (I kinda needed this one)
We had just finished decorating when someone screamed
"They are here!" We all rushed in front of the door and waited.
"Heeeyy!!!!" We cried as a very happy Tyler and a nervous Troye walked in. I walked up to Troye and gave him a hug whilst I whispered
"I know about your cutting Troye... Stay strong man" As I smiled and walked off. I heard Zoe do the same before walking over to me.
"Hey babe!" I say, patting my lap for her to sit down She happily sits down as Troye takes the stage.
Troye's POV
I wasn't ready for when Zoe and Alfie told me they knew about me cutting. I nervously stood on stage and announced myself.
"Hi... Thanks all for coming to mine ad Tyler's 4 month anniversary! I'm gonna sing a cover of One Directions Little Things... this is for you babe" I breathe, directing it at Tyler. He smiles at me comfortingly.
(I'm not gonna put the lyrics) When I'm done Tyler makes his way onto stage to hug me.
"Wait on here." He breathes as he turns round to everyone. I see Zoe and Alfie look at each other with so much excitement I begin to wonder when Tyler says my name. I turn to look at him and see him get on his one knee. I see his eyes sparkle
"Troye Sivan... Will you be my civil partner for the rest of my life?" I can see the tears brimming in his eyes.
"No...."
A/N: I kinda stole the idea I'm working on from another Troyler fanfic so I give her credz if she reads this but nevertheless, a new chapter soon!!
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