Other Half •• Fillie

{7}

  Millie's POV
  Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. FUCK! I could still be on the phone with Finn, talking about our dreams in life, or how we hate people. But instead I'm sitting here, banging my head on my bed because of how stupid I am. Finn wanted nothing more but to get to know me, but I'm so egotistical that I just let all of that blow over part my head. I could have been nicer, more understanding. I could have told him everything he wanted to hear and possibly could have known him better as well.

  Why am I like this, why am I such a bitch.

  I shake my head in frustration, not understanding why I did Finn so wrong. I carefully lay down on my bed, but my body still hurts like hell. My hands tremble and my breath hitches as I try to even move my leg up onto the bed. The got me, and they got me bad. I red medical attention, but I know Im not going to get it. I let out a deep and revolting breath, as I try to put my feet onto the bed.
  "Come on babygirl it's not that hard." I say out loud, trying to motivate myself to move. Everything hurts though, I'm useless. I give up and just sit on my bed, crying. I hate this, I hate this so much. I don't understand why my life is like this, I don't deserve this. I don't deserve to get beaten by my uncle, by those little bitches, by anyone. I deserve a happy family, I deserve friends. I deserve everything, just as much as the next person. I deserve a life...this isn't a life. My tears begin to get heavier and my breath begins to speed up, anger fills my body, but there isn't much I can do. I can't go off, I can't throw and tantrum, I can't barely fucking move! I just sit on the bed, my tears falling onto my bare thighs.
  "Millie?" I hear a familiar voice call out to me. I raise my head, trying to figure out where the voice came from.
  "Millie?!" The voice gets louder and more concerned.

  Where's David and why hasn't he beat this person to death already.

  Then out of no where, Finn's head pops into my room. I jolt back, causing pain to shoot throughout my body.
  "Finn..how did you find my house..how did you even get in my house?" I ask as I attempt to get up, only to be thrown off by the pain circulating all through my body.
  "You don't have to move, and I'm close to the sherif, so he gave me your information." Finn says as he sits next to me on the edge of my bed.

  Why is he here

  Honestly..why

  Not complaining or whatever

  Just think it's a little awkward for him to be here...

  Hmh..

  "Millie!" Finn's voice snaps me out of my trance as I slowly turn my head his way.
  "Ow! Stop yelling, it makes my head start throbbing." I explain to him as I start to rub my head.
  "Oh..I'm sorry..."
  "It's fine I guess. Just what did you need?"
  "Not what I need, what do you need? You look hurt, like really bad. Let me take you to a hospital." Finn's sudden need to care for me shocks the hell out of me, and I don't know how to react. Medical attention sounded great, but it would require them to know what happened. And worst of all, why David hadn't done anything.
  "I um, I'm fine. Medical isn't necessary." I shrug at his offer, then automatically bite the inside of my cheek. Everything fucking hurts; my back, my legs, my shoulders, my head, shit even my fingers hurt! I wish Finn was some kind of fucking healer, so he could just make everything stop hurting.
  "Millie...you're obviously not ok. Let me take you to a hospital."
  "David won't allow that." I say knowing that not only will David not allow it, but I won't either.
  "David...Oh you mean the dude who's knocked out on the couch?" Finn's words instantly put me into panic mode.
  "He's here!?" I whisper yell.
"Yea, it's no big de-"
"Finn yes it is you have to go now!" I try to move quickly, trying to get Finn to move out the house now. But the pain that rests in my body, stars to come alive and attack.
"Millie what's the mat-"
"Finn, get out now!"
"Millie I just want to hel-"
"Finn if you want to help, you'll leave. Please, leave..." I grip on the edge of my bed and use it for leverage to lift myself up. I flinch in pain but I ignore it. I stumble to the door, using the objects around me to hold myself up. I peak outside my door to see if I can hear David. All I hear is snoring. I look back at Finn and motion for him to come. He obeys what I say and follows me down the hall way and to the steps.
"Millie I'll leave but you have to tell me why I can't stay." I look at Finn in frustration. He's so stubborn I swear.
"Finn just...I'll tell you..soon..I think..just.. go please." I push Finn to the edge of the stairs, wanting him to leave as quickly as possible, but he stops me. He turns around and pushes me back, as he steps away from the edge of the steps. He looks into my eyes and I actually get lost. His eyes are like pools. The more I look at them, the more mesmerized I get at the movement..