Other Half •• Fillie

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  A/N: 2k?!?!?!? THANK YOU GUYS SO FUCKING MUCH! I never would have thought of this happening!!!!

  Finn's POV
  A burning fire fills my chest as I stare at Millie's cold, possibly dead body. Tears that I wanted to hold back start to rapidly fall. The small lump in my throat turns into the biggest brick. I urge and push myself to walk over to her. My legs, one after another, move slowly across the room. When I reach Millie, I kneel down next to her and take the bottle from her hands. I slowly and hesitantly pull my phone out my back pocket. My shaky and now sweaty hands dial 911.

911 Operator: 911 what's your emergency?

Me:...my friend..she overdosed on pills

911 Operator: How many did she take?

Me:I don't know

911 Operator: Okay, how do you know she overdosed?

Me: BITCH! The bottle was full!!! And now it's half way gone!!!

911 Operator: Please calm your voice

Me: You asked me a dumb idiotic question.

911 Operator: Ok sir. Whose pills were they?

Me: ...Mine..

911 Operator: And previously where were they?

Me: I don't know, I haven't been taking them.

911 Operator: Why not?

Me: DOES THAT MATTER! Her breathing is slow and shaking and you need to get here quick!!

911 Operator: Sending help now

A river of tears runs down my face as my shaky thumb presses the button to hang up the phone. I couldn't handle this shit anymore. I couldn't fear for my life anymore each step I took. I didn't want to fear for Millie anymore. I wanted to know that she wouldn't ever feel like this again.
My hands start to shake, as well as the rest of my body. That's when the rage escapes my body. That's when I start to scream and let everything pour out of me. That's when I no longer chain my feelings up like they don't mater. I throw my phone across the room and it hits the wall, making a loud thud sound. I pull Millie close and cry. Tears roll off my red cheeks and onto her soft sheepish hair. The emotions get stronger and stronger and I get more angry. Angry at the fact that I couldn't protect her like I said I would. ANGRY at the fact that SHE SAID that she felt SAFE around me. I had to FUCK IT UP by letting her go take "a walk". I had to FUCK IT UP by being me. I always messed things up. That's why my parents don't want me anymore. That's why I live in pain regret and sorrow each and every fucking day of my fucking life.
The sobs get loud and louder. I soon start to take it out on Millie. I shake her, trying to make her gain conscious. Trying to make her wake up and see that I'm right her.
"MILLIE WAKE UP!" My voice rages and fills the whole house. My heart skips every other beat as I look into the eyes of the one I truly do love.
"MILLIE! PLEASE...I need you...I love you.." I hear my voice choke up and crack as the words flow out of my mouth. I wanted her to know, I wanted her to hear.
"Hello! Is anyone here?" A voice calls out from the distance as I start to hear footsteps run up the stairs.
"IN HEAR!" I rock Millie back and fourth looking into her big brown eyes.
"Everything will be ok. Everything will be okay. After this, we'll be together. I'll protect you and never let you out of my sight. I'll keep you safe, I promise." All of a sudden I'm pulled away from Millie and she is picked up and moved away from me. I instantly stand up and follow the EMTs. The stampede down the stairs and rush outside, putting her on a stretcher.
  "Vitals are rapid. Heart rate is slowing down. I NEED AIR OVER HERE!" My eyes scan everyone and everything they give her. They put an IV in her arm and she flenches a little.
  "Reaction to IV, she's looking better, but not quite. Let's round her up." The EMTs place Millie in the truck and start attracting tubes and start giving her shots.
  "Can I come? Please?" I ask as I step closer to the truck.
  "Are you the only one here?"
  "Yeah. I-I live with my brother, he had custody of me. He's working."
  "Alright son, come on." I hop into the truck and they close the big doors behind me.
  "Where are her parents?"
  "It's a long story...I'll only explain it when I have to." The EMT gives me a nod and tends to Millie. The more she flinches the more I feel for her. I turn away not being able to bare to look at her again.
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  "FINN!" All my friends come rushing down the hospital hallway. The all give me hugs and crowd around me, awaiting information.
  "Where is she? How is she?" Sadie's the main one who seems concerned. I put my hand on her shoulder and give it a tight squeeze.
  "She's in her hospital room. They're still running test..." I look at my feet to avoid my friends crappy sympathetic looks.
  "Mr.Wolfhard?" My head whips around as I appoint my attention to the lady with the clipboard in her hand.
  "Hi I'm Mrs.Holland, Millie's nurse. You must be her boyfriend." The nice lady gives me a warm smile, I send her one back and debunk her assumption.
  "Not boyfriend, just friends. We all are." I address her attention to everyone behind me. They all smile and wave.
  "Well hello to you all. Do you know if Millie's parents are here? I can tell you all, but there must be a legal guardian with you in order for me to do so." I look around at all of my friends, as they know that the closet thing Millie has to a guardian, is practically Josh and Chloe.
  "Does it have to be her parents? Can It be my guardian?" The nurse tilts her head and gives me a puzzled look.
  "Is there something wrong with getting her parents?"
  "Her uncles a drunk and doesn't care. He's the reason Millie's in this situation." I tell the lady. Completely regretting what I just said immediately after I just said it.
  "Oh my...well that will be handle with later. In the mean time I'll just tell you what's up. How about we sit down." The nurse down a hallway, leaving us confused. I look around and everyone shrugs. We end up just following the nurse. She takes us into a room where food is laid out and we're there around lots of chairs and one big table.
  "We never typically use this room, but I don't like telling people information while they're standing, or while they're in front of people. Feel free to take what looks appealing." Gaten's eyes light up, as well as Caleb's and Sadie's. They all migrate to the back and grab a few things to fill their stomachs with. They take a seat and start chowing down on their food. Me and Noah take a few of their things and everyone then directs there attention to the lady.
  "Alrighty then let's start. So when Millie first came in she was weak. Her vitals were not steady, her heart rate was slow, and her pulse was barely pulsing. She was colder, temperature of 95. That's not normal. We wanted to give her some medicine, but we couldn't. She overdosed so giving her more meds would only possibly make it worse. So, instead we gave her an IV. She's on her second one, there will be more in the future. After the first IV, her heart rate was slightly back to normal, he vitals were regaining steadiness, and her pulse was at regular speed. We are hopping that after this second one she'll come back into consciousness; right now she's out of it. We are trying everything to make her wake up, but we as nurses and doctors are told not to push anything that will eventually come. Her refining consciousness will eventually come, so we really cannot push it. You're friend is strong, she is and she'll make it. Do you guys have any questions?" I look around at my friends, before I could speak Sadie jumps in.
  "You said she's out of it? Is she unconscious or in a coma?" Sadie practically took the words out of my head. She stares at the nurse deeply, waiting for the answer, the right and unnerving answer.
  "If she remains unconscious for another twenty-four hours, then she will be marked as in a coma..but like I said we are doing everything we can."
  "Can we see her?" I ask as I bite my bottom lip. The thought of Millie being out for so long just gave me a bad feeling.
  "Of course." The nurse gets up from her seat and gestures for us to follow her. We all get up fast and rush to follow the nurse. We walked down multiple hallways snd eventually got to room 1-11. The nurse opens the door and Millie was sat up on the bed, eyes open. Even though she was alive and woke, she still seemed dead and asleep.
  "Millie! Your up! I have some friends for you." The nurse walks over to Millie's bed and feels her head.
  "Good news is you're not cold, bad news is you're hot. I'll have to make some notes, don't mind me." The nurse starts going through her tools and stars to check Millie's heart rate and stuff like that. Millie doesn't say a word, she looks dead. She sat in the bed looking straight, no emotion filled her face. Nothing at all.
  "Millie babe you feeling okay?" The nurse asks. She brings out a flashlight and tells Millie to follow the light. Instead of following the light, Millie instantly shuts her eyes.
  "Sensitive to light...hm." The nurse writes down notes as me and the rest of my friends just stare at Millie, wondering what the fuck was wrong with her.
  "Pupils aren't normal size, they're actually smaller then normal. She's being non responsive...we need to do a brain scan." The nurse rushes over the the phone and starts stares at all of us frantically.
  "Hello this is Nurse Holland. I'm requesting a brain scan for Millie Brown. She's conscious but she's not responsive. She's also sensitive to light.....Alright thanks." The nurse hangs up the phone and looks at us.
"Brain scan request has been approved...get comfortable...you guys are going to be here for a while."

Millie's POV
I'm conscious...but I can speak, or move, or anything. I see my friends depressed faces and it makes me want to cry. Yet not emotion comes out of me not matter how hard I try. I feel fine, but to them I look horrible. I look crazy. I look like I can't take life anymore...and although I felt that way when I consumed those pills...I don't know if I truly feel that way now. I want nothing more but for Finn to hold me...to kiss me...to make me feel important..like he always had. I wanted to tell him that non of this was his fault...that my stupid actions were my doing. A tear falls down my face as I sit in perfect frame on the bed. It catches Finn's attention as he comes over and wipes it off. I wanted to grab him, but I couldn't move a damn muscle and I couldn't let out emotion. I couldn't and it killed me so much to look at the boy I loved and see his emotion pour out because of me. Because of me he feared for his life and doubted himself as a person. Because of me he would never look at the world the same way. Because of me he worries more then ever. All because of me...all because of me...
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  My my my...I do think I just wrote an award winning chapter! Mind fucking blown🤯! I'm sorry for slacking...there's no excuse this time...I've just been lazy and I'm sorry. I hope you all liked this sad depressing chapter because I know I did. Also I want to say if you ever feel like life isn't worth it..just remember that we've all been there. Shit, I remember being there. You just have to push through and make sure that you have people by your side. And if you have no one, find that someone. Find that person who understand you. It may be a close friend, or someone you would have never ever thought of speaking to. We all go through shitty things, it's how you deal with it, that makes it shitty. If you choose to deal with the shit in a shitty way...then oh well. But if you truly chose to go though the shitty times with a mind set of power...then you'll be fine. I love you guys so much! Thanks for all the support!
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-Dreamy•🎈🌻