Bal: it starts with me & you

Changes

*still in their bedroom, twenty minutes later*
Mal: these all make me look fat
Ben: oh dear god
Mal: Bennnnn
Ben: literally none of them make you look fat at all
Mal: but they doooo
Ben: but they don'ttt
Mal: I don't like the way I look in any of them
Ben: then don't wear any of them
Mal: what would you suggest I wear, I can't just wear sweats and your jumper
Ben: you can if you want to
Mal: ugh stop making my life so easy
Ben: heaven forbid I'm helpful
*she wanders over to his and wraps her arms around his neck gently still looking him straight in the eye, now with a half pour half smile, he rolled his eyes, shook his head a little and smiled back at her*
Mal: I love you
Ben: I love you too, Mal
*her smile grew for a moment but then fell a moment later*
Mal: it all changes after today doesn't it?
Ben: how do you mean?
Mal: this all stops, you're just mine anymore, you have to go back to being a king and once everyone knows we have to come out with the truth about the twins and then our privacy is gone again and theirs is gone too
Ben: Mal I promised to always put you guys first and I meant it
Mal: but you do have to go back to being a king and not just my husband and their dad
Ben: I do, but I'm gonna start slow, ease back into it, I'm gonna be here as much as I can while we settle into this and then I'm going to be honest, I will have to be around less, but I'm gonna make a deal with you right here and now, no matter what I'm doing or where I am, call and I'll be straight back and if I have to go very far you three will all come with me so that we can be together
Mal: imagine how easy life must be for normal people compared to this
Ben: we'll figure it out eventually, isn't the rule for first time parents, that were not supposed to have any idea what the hell we're doing
Mal: I just thought it wouldn't be this hard to figure out
Ben: we've had to fight for every single thing we've ever gotten, this one last fight to get ourselves to where we need to be to be a family and to know what we need to do and be for each other will be nothing in comparison to the rest
Mal: I guess
*he meant in and kissed her gently and then pulled her into a hug until his phone went off in his pocket, as soon as he read the message he sighed and she knew instantaneously what it was about*
Mal: just give me a second and I'll be ready
Ben: I'm sorry
Mal: for what?
Ben: I know you're not comfortable doing this and I've made you anyway
Mal: I swore I'd always be by your side through the good and the bad, here is the bad and I am with you
Ben: yesterday was the best day of my life, being able to just sit down and have free time with you guys
Mal: I loved it
Ben: Mal, can I ask you something?
Mal: yeah
Ben: is it hard? Trying to be a mother when you didn't really have one, not the kind you're trying to be anyway
Mal: I don't really know yet, I mean, they're so young, it's kinda hard to know what's right and wrong  at this point, I feel like, it's not so much about not knowing because of her, it's not having someone to share her with, if that makes any sense at all, I don't have a mother to share all these moments with, I'm not missing what I could have learned from how she raised me yet, right now all I'm missing is her
*her fave had slowly become more tinged with sadness, he brought her hands up and kissed them gently, putting a small smile back on her face*
Mal: why did you ask
Ben: because I wanted to know if you'd give the answer I was expecting
Mal: and did I?
Ben: I'm not really sure, I guess not?
Mal: was what you wanted to hear?
Ben: I...
Mal: you wanted to know if missing her made it harder
Ben: I guess
Mal: you're worried missing him is gonna affect how you are as a father?
Ben: yeah
Mal: well, I'm not gonna lie, personally it does feel like I'm definitely missing something that sharing with my own family would fill, but then I don't have anyone, you still have people, and yeah, it probably will affect how you are as a father, but the mostly outcome is that you'll find every minute with them more precious, throughout your life and theirs, because of that
Ben: you think?
Mal: yeah, I do
Ben: I don't want to let you down, I don't want to let them down
Mal: you won't, but that's not it, is it?
Ben: I don't want to let him down
Mal: could these two ever let you down? If they tried their best at everything they did and always tried to see the good in everything and everyone, could you ever be disappointed in them?
Ben: course not, never
Mal: then he couldn't ever have felt you'd let him down, not truly anyway, the only choice I'd ever known you to make that he didn't agree with was me, well me and my friends, but mostly me
Ben: and he could never change anything between us
Mal: I know babe, I didn't then, I do now
*ben turned to look at the clock and Mal sighed a little when she too looked and saw they were now pretty late*
Mal: sorry, hold on
*she muttered a quick incantation and with a little puff of smoke it was done, he had to cough a little a readjust his eyes, when he had done all that he found her stood in a dress, hair done, makeup on, ready to go*
Mal: right umm....SHOES! I NEED SOME OF THOSE
*as she began to run around the room, seemingly looking for a specific pair of shoes, he couldn't help chuckling*
Ben: so you'll cheat at your clothes, hair and makeup, but not the shoes?
Mal: I am kind of have to use my powers for other things so forgive me if I'm not getting all the little details right
*ben just smiled as she turned away and he realised her dress wasn't actually zipped up, which caused him to chuckle once again*
Ben: babe, come here a second
*she turned to look at him in confusion but did as he asked and wandered back over to him, now with the pair of boots she wanted to wear in her hands*
Ben: turn around
Mal: why?
Ben: can you not feel the draft on your back?
Mal: it's not done up is it?
Ben: not even a little bit
Mal: damnit I though I managed to at least get that bit right
Ben: it's simply fixed, if you'll turn around
*she jokingly rolled her eyes and turned around, he stepped a little closer as she took her hair over her shoulder, out of the way, he carefully did up her zip and then him hands made their way to her waist, his head to her neck, leaving a few kisses there, she let a small moan escape before remembering they were supposed to be somewhere*
Mal: Ben come on, we've gotta go
*he groaned, wrapping his arms around her waist and resting his chin gently on her shoulder, they couldn't help looking at the sight of them like this in the mirror directly in front of them*
Mal: how is it that so much had changed and yet so little as well?
Ben: I have no idea
Mal: we look almost exactly like we did in this exact same position five years ago
Ben: we do
Mal: but everything is completely different
Ben: not everything, not how much I love you, not how much you love me, we're still us
Mal: but we have changed, and so has how much we love each other
Ben: no it hasn't?
Mal: well I don't know about you, but I definitely love you so much more than I could've even contemplated five years ago, everything I have, everything I am, is because of you, so I can't help keeping on loving you more and more every time something happens
Ben: you're absolutely amazing, have I told you that?
Mal: only pretty much every day
Ben: still not enough
Mal: come on, or we'll be killed by cogsworth
Ben: I can just sense that somewhere he's about to pop a cog
Mal: he probably has judging by the fact we're like quarter of an hour late
Ben: come on, let's get them and go
Mal: what are we actually doing with them?
Ben: apparently we have people for such a task
Mal: we said we weren't gonna let people raise them for us
Ben: relax Mal, we have a few nurses for them, that doesn't mean we're taking a backseat in parenting, at the moment, it's gonna be a good idea anyway, there's two of them and only one of you, if I'm not a round and you need someone right then, I'll be back as soon as I can but I'm the meantime, you'd need help, I don't want you going crazy tying to run yourself ragged, I'm not expecting you to step back, but it just means you can ask for help, most of these people helped raise me, they're like aunts to me anyway
Mal: okay....I guess that sounds alright
Ben: and with Bella still not being quite right it's good to have them around, and you, I don't want to be leaving you alone for such a long time at the moment, you're still not right and I know it
Mal: I'm fine
Ben: I know you're not, I can see it, I know you like the back of my hand, but come on, we can have all these discussions properly later, we can't put this off any more
Mal: not even a little?
Ben: not even a little
Mal: damnit, it was worth a shot
Ben: we can do this, together
Mal: we can do anything together, right?
Ben: right
Mal: okay, let's go

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OKAY SO I KNOW ITS BEEN LIKE TWO WEEKS AND IM SUPER SORRY, let me explain, I was in Barcelona for a few days at the end of last week, coming into this new week I got back home at like 2am on Monday then I've had school and dance classes every day this week, I've been working on this but didn't want to write a filler chapter but in the end that's what this became and I know you guys are probably getting so sick of them but I PROMISE the next chapter WILL ACTUALLY BE THE PLOTLINEEEE, I'm so sorry I keep doing this, I'm working on it I promise so I hope the length of this will appease you all, TY FOR BEING SO PATIENT! Ily all Xoxo